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2007-08-19T20:10:00.000+08:00

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I told you not to touch the cookie jar, why did you?

2007-08-15T19:10:00.000+08:00

so now i'm feeling fuck now and it's bad. hate those fucking feelings. yupp. so these days are good. last sat, i didnt meet stephanie.l but instead i met CHLOE! plus holly[later in the night]. yupp. we had a ball of a time! it was extremely fun! we took neoprints! ha. we dont usually do these kind of stuff. and i dont like taking those but we were bored so we went to the shop and chose the machine. and we realised it was really exciting. we loooooooooovvvvvvveeeee it!!! and this will be our tradition, not for others. ha!

so on sunday, went church. tried out the new convention side cos my mum was on duty so it was huge!!! like HHHHHHHUUUUUUUGGGGGGEEEEEE!!! ha. yupp. and we went facial, my sis bought her school bag and my mum bought a pair of shoes. ya. and i got NOTHING at all. ha! and later went my grandma's house. but we detoured to the library first. and i borrowed books. yupp. it's really nice. ha. and my grandma's hse was really nice to sleep in. ya. and we took off early cos i didnt do my homework so i had to rush through tt night. and thank god i could complete almost all of them. yupp.

on monday, nth major happened. i guess the major-est thing was we had 3 chemistry for the day and every other monday. it's just draggy, never had those kind of periods before. ya. and i got back the 'stolen' library book. yupp. and i cant really remember. and one tuesday, got back our ss test. i'm quite overwhelmed but the marks i got but the other one pulled my marks down TREMENDOUSLY!!! terrible shit! yupp. so i've improved! no worries. jesus's is by my side. ha!

and today had assembly, e/math ct. it was fucking difficult, i knew it would be but i never thought i would be stucked! like DAMN!!! it cant be! yupp. but anyway physics was fun for the first time. ha. and i kinda lost track of time! time passes pretty fast however sat takes really long time to arrive!!! ha. cos sat, i'll be meeting STEPHANIE!!! ha and tt's confirmed!!! ho. i miiiisssssssssssssssssssss heeeeeeeerrrrrr like CRAZY!!! ha. we've been talking online recently. okay maybe offline. haha. she's really sweet/nice/comical everything!!! like her aloooott although she's younger by a year! haha. i'm scared tt i would not be able to recognise her! hoho. but i guess i wouldnt. yupp. seeing her this week makes me hype! hah. and school's isnt drag when there's a book to read during class. haha. life without a book kills! ha. MAN! i sound bookwormy! haha. so tt's all!

-you are my god so i'll NEVER be SHAKEN!

Our hearts joined as one

2007-08-11T11:28:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM! yupp. watched secret ytd. and it was really nice. although it's rather complicated abt the time traveling part and all. yupp. so ytd went to van's hse to bake my mum's cake. and it turned out great and my mum liked it alot. yupp.

havent been posting tt often recently. so ya. went out with van and xinyi recently. yupp. on national day, we went ms to watch fireworks and all. it was a beautiful sight. kinda magnificent though. had fun with all of them . although it was just a short while cos we got bored after awhile. so split-ed and when our own ways. so van terence and van's bro went home together. ha. and we ran down the street from bras basah to the cathay. it was hilarious. van's bro keep laughing tt made all of us laughed. and we laughed our way back. it was extremely funny. yupp. had fun. really! yupp.

so today i'll be goin out maybe town or smth. and maybe i'll meet STEPHANIE!!! haha. i missed her quite a bit. it was kinda sudden she msging me. hoho. yupp. but it's cool.

oh ya. ytd, cos i was checking my mail then i saw the haloscan thingy. i just realised tt i signed up for that for a month already! so i was wondering why not i use it. so i watched the video as to how to load it up to blogger. and i realised that i've been uploading the wrong one! ha. so now it's changed. yupp.

-lead me to the cross

it was just for that particular moment.

2007-08-02T22:35:00.000+08:00

saw your name, i was exhilarated even before i saw what you had to say.

it's kinda exaggerating but tt was how i felt.

your little concern means much more than it seems.

you kinda hold the power of breaking me or making me!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROYSTON! on the 1st August!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LUKE CHOO! on the 3rd August!

best wishes to both of you! you 2 are the best men on the school grounds. haha. and to roy: you'll be tanner and taller soon! time will tell! :D and you know, we'll always be close like now. hooh! to luke choo: you're tall already and you have great biceps so just work on not hurting other ppl's feelings unknowingly. other than tt, you're great! :D cant believe i endured you for 2 and half yrs alreadY! hooh. anyway blessed birthday! :D

haha. this week has been amazingly boring and time passes tremendously slow! and school sucks with all those checks for hair and especially skirtS!! like WHAT THE FUCK!!! they fucking need to know what's the comfortable length for skirts! like they fucking ask us, students to waste fucking money on skirts! like no way for me!!! why shld i?! i couldnt even care! ya. okay after this week. they'll be all over the checking of skirt! hoho. yupp. anyway i have been hardworking and tt's great. hoho. and i have gotta plan for sat!!! i havent plan man! it's rather late to plan! yupp. so anyway, there's lots of movies to watch nowadays. and tt's wonderful! hooh. yupp. okay. anyway tt's all for now! heh! :D *and teachers have fucking bad mood swings. but forget them. gotta sympathise them though.

-i feel you there! :D

I gotta find another way out, this way just isnt it.

2007-07-31T18:27:00.000+08:00

again, there were lots going on last few days. there wasnt odac on friday and it rocked. i think i went to watch alone. i think. cant quite recall. if it is, i went with van stef terence albin roy and yanxiang. it was frreakyy. cos i'm not for these kind of show. that night kinda freaked me out. and later stef van and me walked to bras basah complex to get stuff. later went to bugis village to eat crispy pancake and it rocked big time! like seriously! and coincidentally met sam shien xinyi. and we slacked for awhile and we proceeded home. hoho. yupp. but i went to van's hse. yupp. and we cycled to play swing and i cycled her out !!! haha. it was fucking fun! like seriously!

and on sat, it was offical opening. it was kinda grand. and i fell in love with those balloons. hah. yupp. and we ran like normal. and it was so much less tiring. hoho. and it was the last time we thought. yupp. but anyway it was really relaxing but nervousy when we got to the 'stage'. and we ran a little then ran back. haha. it was like a normal rehearsal is just tt there were important ppl around and all. later went dinner with ppl . haha. yupp. i love the mt k ppl alot. we've became a 'family' like literally. we spend retarded/enjoyable/troubled times together. haha. yupp.

and on sunday, was a usual routine, went church in the morning. saw no one familiar. and after tt went town for facial and on that day was my dad's pre-birthday dinner. had steamboat. it was great and i ate alot. but i guess it's alright. had cake. and it was great. haha. yupp. and gave my dad the pressie. it was a shirt. yupp

and on monday, it was a special half day. so van stef me went to watch movie. and we watched invisible target!!! at vivo!!! hoho. and nicholas tse is like so hot with those 6 pacs!!!! like he has a gorgeous body! and shawn yue is cute too. haha. and jackie chan's son! yupp. the show was funny, action-packed and sad!!! but all the more near perfect!!! ha. it's kinda the second best chi movie i'd ever watched! yupp. and later we went num to get roy's sandals. and this super cute guy served us! like oh man!!! he's damn cute although short but taller than us. yupp. so anyway we'lll be going this week again!! hoho. to get smth. hoho. yupp. and school's okay. but tiring. stressing topics now. so got to push! yupp :D

-faith is what i have!!!

now begin to take evasive action!

2007-07-26T18:45:00.000+08:00

found so much to life when you see things in a different view/angle. dont always look at things in that particular certain way, there's much more that i can learn from when i see the other side of the world. yupp. so anyway these days, okay. i guess there's many things happening to other ppl. but recently, i kinda enjoy myself. except ytd and today. kinda not my usual self and not feeling 'superb' well. yupp. so school lessons isnt tt boring. and i just realised that if i sat in front during physics, i'll be able to pay attention bcos i have no a slight least of chance to sleep and mr chia is so much louder. yupp. it's kinda cool though. or maybe temperature is easy with all those calculations. yupp

anyway, about school stuff, i got back my emath paper. however i thought it was A math. and i was kinda happy tt i got 23/25. but ended up it was emath. but still glad. yupp. so had the rehearsal this week. it's kinda the last one ever happening. cos the real thang is on sat! yuupp. it's not that nerve-wrecking as other stuff i guess. it's just plain running. yupp so anyway i got over all the fuss about the missing rehearsal thingy. yupp. and this week we had a short odac sessions for the sec 2s and sec 3s. it's abt the nyaa-silver. it's kinda cool doing community service. i love doing community service. ha. most of us chose to go to the zoo to do it! it'll be fun! everybody's first thought is to clean the animals' shit. but mine is like feeding the animals and preparing their food. i guess it'll be fun. i want to get started soon! anyway i start to love ss but i'm doing too well abt it. i just love to know all those worldly stuff. but not really more abt the past. but the close present kind. yupp. and the real events that are happening. you know i have a really big ambition of helping the world like Oprah. however, she has that huge amount of money to help the 3rd world country. but for sure one thing that she didnt had those huge sums of money when she first started. she first had sponsers and later had her tv shows to influence ppl to join her or donate money to help those ppl. i want to be like her! ha. i watch oprah like kinda everyday since my house had the somewhat huge flat screen. cos it's nicer watching from there. ha. but the stories are really warm-hearty. yupp. okay tt was all about oprah and my little big ambition. heh.

and i just downloaded click five's jenny. oh man. i cant believe. i dont like the name jenny but i like catchy songs so i downloaded it. yupp. i gotta check out what the lyrics say. so ya. i'm just real random here. oh ya. tmr i'll be watching the new jay chou movie as ms van wants to watch! ha. i hope i'll understand and the subtitle will be ENGLISH! yupp. and i cant wait to eat cheese nachos tmr! hoho. and i've decided what to wear tmr! heh!

and ya, i kinda think i'm more blessed than ever. i'm super glad with my family however sometimes they get all so over-protective. and i'm glad becos of my friends too. like some of them i really sweet. both girls and guys. yupp. close and true friends are what have. and i thank god for tt! :D

-draw me closer

Beware little kid, there's evil out there!

2007-07-23T19:20:00.000+08:00

I came back from bangkok ytd afternoon. yupp. the air there is like super polluted although not many of the residents smoke. it's really weird. anyway, the place is really dirty with dirty water. yupp anyway went there for shopping. it's really cool though. they had really cheap stuff there. bought not much clothes. but i guess it's much more than usual. and ate lots of food! cos the food there is really cheap too! yupp. didnt bring the camera so didnt take pictures at all. yupp. got stuff for friends and all. didnt go church this week again. yupp. didnt meet chloe! i feel like meeting her really soon! :D yupp.

oh ya. i so gotta buy the red everlast watch. i'm kinda in love with it. i'm in love with the gorgeous adidas watch my sister's in love with too. yupp. so anyway, got back from bk, i was told i'm a reserve for the heritage run. kinda disappointed but gradually got irritated cos i kinda wasted all my effort and time on this run. it's terrible! kinda hate it. it's like who's disappointed in who! uh! yupp. it's not like i dun wan to go. it's i gotta go the holiday with my sis or she wont be able to go anywhere anymore cos she's going to school so and her holidays are irregular!!! like what the fuck to the run i mean! uh!!! hatesss. yupp. fucking forget abt it!

kinda get fucking fucked up really easily! yupp. it's really bad i find. but only to some ppl. the closer ones arent. yupp. had test today, and i'm couldnt do one question and tt's quite bad. i guess lots of ppl in class got full marks. yupp. the day wasnt that bad. i guess. yupp. for social studies i gotta catch up with the others cos i missed the 2 periods of ss on friday. yupp.

-your love will never fail me!

That's the way to go!

2007-07-17T19:06:00.000+08:00

True friends stick by you when you down and out,

True friends dont mind being with your other friends although they dont quite like them,

True friends will go all out to help you when you're in need,

True friends will never let you go so easily,

True friends will never let you be alone,

True friends is direct and rather hurt your feelings than letting you get hurt by other ppl.

and i'm get glad i have them.

That was kinda what i really meant/feel about close friends in my life. yupp. there's lots of commotions been happening recently. and it's quite irritating though. pardon me. it's FUCKING IRRITATING! yupp. so anyway today had the mt k cert and the powerpoint slide during the assembly and it brought back many memories. yupp. love that. haha. and the songs rocked. haha. kinda though. yupp.

and tmr it'll like a super long day!! uh! like rehearsal and odac. training will be terribly tough. it's like not terribly, it's EXTREMELY!!! yupp. i was kinda guilty, suspecting someone behind her back! and i'm really sorry. i wanted to tell her but it just slipped off my mind at that point in time. yupp sorry. need rest but i cant sleep! yupp.

-alot more to grace than what it said to seems

Let it all out!

2007-07-14T12:45:00.001+08:00

heh. ytd went to watch harry potter. ytd didnt have odac and it rocks! i kinda got used to odac being on wed than friday although it only happened once but it gonna happen twice. yupp. so went to watch with van,brian and aaron. and was suppose to meet shi en but didnt anyway. yupp. and wanted to meet eileen also but i was too shag to go down to ps to find her. feel sorry. yupp. ytd was tiring. it was like school .... then went out till late. not that late but dark. haha. yupp. went ms for movie and later went walking/shopping. but i kinda bought one bag that so rock! yupp. haha anyway ate kfc! and i found out that kfc is fucking expensive now!!! cheats poor little ppl like us money!!! so i'm not going eat kfc so often! heh. yupp. ms has many cheap stuff! and ytd i saw lenard working. woohoo! heh. it was funny seeing him work. hoho. yupp. anyway we're chilled outside ms. enjoyed the lights , scenary and all. yupp. went home. the bus trip, we talked endlessly it's kinda cool. it's been a long time since we talked about the 'world' haha. yupp. we talked all the way through.

and today i have to go to school. today have the run! kinda sucks though. yupp. then it's like super hot now. and yupp. going out later i guess after the run but i think i'll be damn shag. so i gotta control my feelings when i'm out! yupp. control control control! control my spendthrift-ness. everywhere is having season sales!!! mango !!! haha. it's crazy drop! zara isnt tt down. but ya. nice! lovelovelove clothes! i've found out what i really wanna do! and tt's good. i'm working towards it! heh.

-here i come, lord! :D

Strength, GOD it links!

2007-07-09T19:21:00.000+08:00

what i've been going through emotionally is nothing compared to people living in 3rd world countries. i'm counted BLESSED! and i agree i am! yupp. these few weeks havent been attending church. kinda drifted from the lord. bcos of kayaking! i've got 2star after all those tanning!!! the tanning was worth a prize! kinda happy with it. last lesson wasnt tt tedious. i was more daring, kinda in a way. so not afraid of capsizing. love capsizing. love the water. haha. but the sun!!! uh! scorching hot! yupp.

so anyway on sat, i went out with eileen!!! haha. we went on a shopping spree but it's a spree just for her. cos she has been working too hard in ac. so she had to go shopping. ya. so then we went town first. check out urbanmale. they had kinda nice stuff i guess. yupp then later went to bugis i guess. then i walked at bugis street first. haha. and we saw a super hot guy with a pair of red jeans. he's like super hot!!! extremely good looking!!! uh!!! i never see him the second time!!! uh!!!! anyway later met gong da and lenard. it was kinda retarded. we waited for 3 traffic lights till we could cross to junction! irritating! anyway we walked aimlessly there. yupp. then later we went to kk to visit my dearest xinyi. yupp. talked for awhile then went home!!! we were like fucking shag. so head to her house. yupp. watched live earth for a while till eileen bathed fin then i bathed. later we did ss and i finished first so i used the com. yupp. i surfed the net aimlessly. yupp. anyway we were damn shag then clay came and passed the chem text. so sweet. later we went to bed. however we were not sleepy at all. we laughed shit. then we slept unknowingly. haha. yupp. i kinda woke up several times. yupp. haha. it was sleeping at her house. and the next day woke up really early for kayaking yupp. that's all.

and today roy lost his ez-link. and maybe it's cos of me, kinda feel bad. yupp. and i feel tt i've grown up of immaturity, kiddy behaviours and all, i've grown out and up of it. yupp. :) kinda glad about it. bcos i wont be living in the past and bearing grudges of past and understand the world more! yes!!! haha.

-my sins had been taken away!

It's taxing to put up with a brave front.

2007-07-04T17:21:00.000+08:00

getting all emotion after returning to school from the super short break. getting fucking vulgar lately. that's fucking irritating me! uh! there's lots of stuff going on inside.

so anyway had enjoyable stuff on monday. it was a not bad day. had a small gathering with junko. ya. it's kinda nice watching movie i guess. tt's all we did. we didnt have dinner to chat among ourselves. ya. but i'm glad tt i saw them. they look good i guess. yupp. then went bugis to meet stefvan. yupp. went walking for awhile. they go get studs for their ears. ya.

so got back to school and i got blacker cos of the kayaking. yupp. anyway i'll be getting the cert this sun. and i think it'll be so worth. had fun capsizing. it's addictive! ya.

ytd. pauline didnt come and eileen left early so i went talking to evonne and joy. confide in them. it was kinda depressing.

i have a sudden urge to change my fucking lifestyle. i need to get a real life. maybe i need to be alone for the time being. i'm not happy anymore. in a matter fact, i dont feel happiness in me. just cant feel it. all i see now is happiness. but i'm not getting some. why?!

i have my friends around. i really do love them. love seeing them happy. it does comforts me seeing them happy. ya. but everyday there'll be at least one person depressed, walking round the school. spreading the 'depression gas' or 'laughing gas' to ppl around them and all.

okay. just forget it all. maybe i just need a fucking break from the world. switch off from the outside fucking noises and just concentrate about important issues and get all those fucking knotted problem to be unknotted! yupp.

-trying to find myself now

I love hiding but i'm not really good at it.

2007-06-30T22:26:00.000+08:00

hello world! anyway i've been busy, like packed schedule!!! on friday! went pizza-ing with my new classmates had fun!!! THANKS SHAH!!! hoho. then went 5 k run! my grp was really slacked and tt's cool and i partner VANESSA! hoho. then we did rehearsal for official opening and we did retarded running circles. haha. ya. did 2 or 3 times. it's crazy. yupp. so today went kayaking. 2 star! it was all so capsizy~ hoho. did lots of it. really cool though. it's quite addictive! tmr we'll be doing expedition!! coolness. but i dont have energy bar at home. so ya! gotta ask other ppl! yupp. anyway on monday meeting my OBS friends!!! hoho. so cool! miss them. okay !!! i'll be resting now!!! loves!

-pray for a great and confident day tmr! loves (:

My Opposition's off the ring! :D

2007-06-27T21:45:00.000+08:00

There's lots of things going on! and one thing is tt i've been going back to my old habit: slacking/not concetrating! fucking sucks! uh! hate it! i so dont want to be like that. this year is important. okay maybe every year is important. anyway i've been sighing alot lately! it's kinda annoying! yupp.

i've been trying my really best to catch up on my work. and i kinda regret slacking and shopping too much during hols. and now the consequences are that my work is piling up like shit! like literally!

anyway i kinda find my friendships are really bonded lately! i'm really delighted about it. and i've been changed to a new place. and the guy sitting beside me is joshua. i don't quite talk to him. but i really try to do so. yupp. and i see beside pauline on the other side! we've been chatting for a really long time like whole day long. we didnt even stop! haha. and choo's diagonally behind too! and michelle and suzhen's behind! haha. it's kinda fun there. lilihao is on the other side too. love the sitting arrangement! eileen's kinda far but we still do talk! haha. shah's really to the other corner, but we still can hear him! he talks really loud though. and he's with jun! haha. yupp. i'll be going out with my classmates tmr! hoho. it's so cool. they're my new classmates!

anyway, this month i've reunited with shi en! hoho. maybe we do talk last time but really little! hoho! but now we go out like countless times during the hols! but kinda little too! however she's the girl, i've been going out most during the hols! van and eileen have always been in a packed schedule so ya! stef isnt in the country so shi en's the one!!! hoho ((: love her though. miss hanging out with van! :( yupp.

-watch over me! (:

Devil's attack plan! but he's goin' down! WAY DOWN!

2007-06-25T19:27:00.000+08:00

Great Friends!

yums !

BBQ during Chalet.
more photos at http://keziamemories.home.services.spaces.live.com/

my blog's DEAD! seriously! really little ppl tag maybe cos i didnt give a fuck to this blog for the whole hols! yupp. so i'll be going back to blogging i guess. got lots of photos to show. but i'll just put some here . others just check it out at another webby . i'll type it out later . yupp. did lots of stuff during the hols like mt k trip, lots of shopping,chalet-ing, went youth concert, hung out at jalan kayu alot too, went obs and then shop again. yupp. now i'm back in school. yupp. really fucking boring. like the new form! suck shit! seriously. i dun hate teachers but she's the one! cant take it! like she talk fucking slow! uh!
so err, i've been damn shagged these few days and its been crazy. didnt have time for many stuff. but it's cool. anyway obs was kinda a waste of time. did enjoyed myself but was quite disappointed by the toughness of the 'course' it was damn easy. anyway forget abt the camp! i gotta watch my bag soon! as in mt k bag and this week have the 5k run!!! aaah. my stamina suck shit now! anyway this sat gotta go out. got addicted going out. cant stay home on weekends!!! yupp. gotta rush through my work as in homework. yupp. anyway i worked this hols only one time!!! haha. it's quite cool know! heh. anyway love hols! who doesnt?! seriously.

-jesus, my shield!

Obedience to the Father.

2007-06-03T22:06:00.000+08:00

HEY!!! haha. anyway ytd i watched Shrek 3. it's kinda amusing that someone like me even watch Shrek! hated shrek cos it looks hideous! yupp. so anyway watched it. it was 'kinda funny'. watched it because of EILEEN POO! haha. yupp. went out to pool. but after a while we got bored. but i got bored first cos my feet were fucking pain cos of the fucking blisters!!! yupp. so stayed out really late last night. yupp. was with new 'friends'.yupp. went eileen's place to stay over. her place was really comfortable or maybe i was really tired. and my phone's batt went low on me! kinda irritating but cool though. it didnt disturb my beauty sleep.

so went home in the morning cos had church in the afternoon and had to eat lunch with the family. yupp. then went suntec to slack a little. cos we were too early.yupp. so queued up msged chloe. sat with her and her mum. yupp. really missed her like a lot. sadly, we cldnt hang out later cos she had a concert and i had to shop! haha. it's been a really long time i've shopped. i think. yupp. so went marina square first cos my sis wanted the mango pants but in the end she didnt like it so she didnt buy it. went far east by bus. went black clover!!! hoho. check the place out the first time didnt get a shit. later walking around for a while and saw nothing nice went back to black clover and tried out stuff. yupp. and bought a grey kinda long top. hoho. happy with it. heh. then ate at some Japanese restaurant it was like so filling!!! couldnt take it. then later me and my sis went sq 2 for grocery shopping at NTUC and my parents went to visit my third aunt. she just had operation. yupp. so anyway we bought lots of junk! and i'll be baking brownies!!! haha. yupp. so that's my day! wow ! it's long and TIRING!!! i'm tired now . gotta bathe! heh.

-everything has already been planned out.

Abundance of love.

2007-06-01T21:48:00.000+08:00

came back from mt k. like two day ago. it's quite cool. okay. very cool. heh. it was amazing experience. and i had gone with my really good friends, van, eileen, roy! they're great !!! geraldine and amanda too!!! the climb can never be sum-ed up in words. the memories will always be in my heart/mind. it's an experience that i'll never ever get noe. it's amazing! MAGNIFICIENT! haha. the scenery it's like heaven! like it's the place you'll live when you're dead. but heaven is way much better. hah. cos you no need to climb all the way up. heh. spent lots of time with my group mates. they're great especially justin. haha. he's been helping in every way. haha till the teachers think tt he's pampering me. heh. he's really a great help to me for the whole trip. without him i wouldnt push so far. and he's hilarious too. heh. me and eileen drew a 'C' on his 'heart' haha. with cement. hehe. it was fun playing with cement. and the paint too. when painting the kindergarten. heh. i even used my hand. it was so fun!!! UNFORGETTABLE experience! oh ya! and my and van's bag weighed 8 kg when we went there . heh. and mine was 8 again when we came back. van's one was 11 or 10. heh. i guess cause of the wet clothes. yupp. some bags were fucking heavy. like seriously. yupp. so after climbing and all. we went white water rafting!!!! oh man. that's exciting!!! lovelovelove it!!! it's like the rapids were so cool. it was like a roller coaster ride. maybe it is. haha. my group jumped down into the river! haha. i thought i shldnt but later i thought abt it then i just jumped cos this kind of chance only come once in a lifetime so i was thinking why not! i may die anytime. haha. never know when's my time. yupp. during the climb i was like 'i'll never climb any mountain again! ever!' but after that i was thinking. life is so short, why not another mountain! yupp. it's cool. and mt k was like haunted!!! me and van heard a girl screamed 'help!' twice. it was creepy when me van luke choo, eileen and roy were talking abt it. luke choo and van were talking abt it first then i overheard and talked abt it. i was scared then i grabbed roy and eileen's arm and eileen started to freak out too. heh. roy was like indifferent to it. haha. yupp and in the plane back, we ate to our hearts' content! hah. me van eileen farid fiq sol ate maggie in the plane and it was the best meal we ever had! haha. yupp. so one word for the trip: MAGNIFICIENT! hoho. i love all of the ppl there !

anyway so came back singapore, van wanted to pass the huge toblerone to sam. haha. he was touched i guess. haha. yupp. and we slacked with them for a while cos i stupidly forgot to bring the housekeys so had to wait for my mum to come back home. yupp. so we were with sam and his 'brother' haha. ming ze. yupp. so we talked for a while and van had to ease her 'needs'. yupp and night stef msged me!!! i missed her alot!!!! and got back so the mail from chloe. missed her lots too! we have been able to hang out with each other often. yupp. so anyway went window shopping ytd with van. we were at far east checking out stuff. and i saw the baby phat bag was only 189. i really want my mum to buy me tt if not a new stock tt's coming in! heh. then later in the evening played pool with 2 ppl. haha. van was cute. heh. yupp. later van acc me with my family to eat dinner at a korean restaurant at sq 2. haha. yupp. so later sent her home. and i was movie marathon-ing went i came home. watched ocean eleven. loved the show. planning to watch ocean 13. hhhah.yupp.

so today went to eileen's hse to slack!!! we were movie-ing and her dvd player suck big time. it keep hanging. however we still managed to watch a few entire movie. yupp. haa, yupp then later slept for awhile. heh. then went rivervale plaza. hoho. bought cakes!!! haha. anyway then went to mac's to buy shaker fries. and later went kfc to eat cheese fries. while eating we saw clay. hah. i thought he was one of eileen's ah beng friend. haha. then 3 of us talked for a while then saw chin yi. she was otw to the RC. yupp. then we proceeded to the rc to find her. she's really a nice girl. she do volunteery work. yupp. so tt's my day. tmr going eileen's hse again. and night time go play pool. yupp. with ppl.

-god's love is powerful!

Yearning for more.

2007-05-24T15:33:00.000+08:00

Everyone always think tt their right! People don't always give in to the right answers. Some people also live in DENIAL! Denying stuff is fucking dumb, not sure why some people does those things. We humans should live in the truth and for the truth.

Oh man. i have no idea why i wrote the above. it's like so random. heh. so weird. maybe cause i'll be leaving already!!! oh man. will be climbing mt. k like in 2 days time. i'll be leaving tonight! fucking fast!!!

so anyway, i'm still not used to after exams life. it's so tiring! yupp. and there's so much pressure on Os where Os are next yr. but i admit it's really impt. it open paths for my future and i gotta choose my future and not it choose me! but duh i know god has already planned my future long long ago. heh. so my future is all set!

okay, so i'm setting off today. haven't packed all the stuff yet. but will be doing it really soon! really. and i really dont want to be home sick. it's not like that i will be but it's like 7 days!!! it's really a long period of time. i will miss out of shopping sales, sleep, games, pool and so much stuff! i really have to not be home sick!!! yupp.

Stef, ShiEn, Xinyi, Pauline ! i'll miss you girls! we'll hang out when i get back!

Chloe, we didnt meet last week. so we'll meet soon and we'll start working soon!!! miss you babe!!!

-jesus's always with me

Everything's happening too quickly!

2007-05-18T18:28:00.000+08:00

These 2 days was like a total drag! ytd was terrible. after checking the sciences! we went some park at pasir panjang and played 'amazing race'! it was fucking dumb! i dun noe why the fuck the school spend shit money on those companies! anyway ytd was damn hot! the heat was unbearable!!! and last night i had to pack for mt k! the last check! it's amazing how fast time passes! yupp.

today i had a fucking swell at my neck. it was damn pain! like really. but still went school! and lessons were back! and i almost died!!! i was damn shag. physics was like a drag. when he started talking i felt like sleeping! and today i wanted sleep during geog but i didnt! cos i just started to improve on my geog. so i cant let myself down.so i slept during the last period. yupp. then after school had bag check! van slept first then i slept! it was so comfy! hoho. yupp. so i'm still tired! but i gotta go to yiting's 'party' later . so ciaos for now!

-your glory goes before all faith!

HYBRID!

2007-05-14T21:29:00.000+08:00

it was mother's day ytd! it was an awesome day. went church. it was great by tiring cos had to wake up damn early for service! it was crazy but still went. and it's so cool tt i'm applying what pastor said to my daily life even before he said. it's awesome. so ya. the church gave all the mum's a massage pillow. it's cute. purplish. and it's cute cos most of the women in suntec were carrying those pillows.

so we proceeded to town for my mum's facial appt tt me and my sis booked. yupp. so my mum enjoyed a lot. and btw we bought her a small pouch for a lunches. but tt bag and facial didnt beat what my dad bought her. we then went taka to meet my dad at louis vuitton. we had to queue up to get in! it was terrible so many became so rich. but my dad says tt they just wanna pamper themselves. so anyway we went in to get a bag for my mum. so anyway my mum saw a tote tt she like. however the stock werent there, she was really upset and my dad cldnt bear to see her like tt so reserved it and did everything he cld to get it. so sweet! yupp. so her day was great! and in the night, we went to eat buffet! it was terrible. i ate so much!

anyway this morning woke up super early like really. cos had mt k training! it was 7.5 kg! terrible weight. during training i was really tired and luke choo kept saying i was sick but i'm not like duh! haha. but it was just 'concerned'! yupp. so anyway came back and slept through the journey. it was damn shag. so came home and slept and van bathe and all. and went off. yupp. so then slacked through the day! cos it was damn tiring and i'll be back in school tmr for checking of paper! so fast! yupp anyway it's cool.

-picture myself...

You said what?!

2007-05-10T19:24:00.000+08:00

Heyhey! i finished the exams. woohoo~ it was torturing awaiting for the exams to be over! we'll be going out like mad! awesome! the exams had been really last min revision and all. i had to rush through every subject the night before it was really terrible!!! never had this kind before! and i didnt come to school for major topics. so really gotta thank god for me being able to pull through the week.

so today i went for dental. and the dentist said i was brushing well!!! so i gotta bring my toothbrush everywhere now! cos she said it's neccessary! she said 'it's just a toothbrush'. so ya. and i changed it to gold and black. and start to regret though. cos it's really dull. not me! yupp. but i already put it so gotta live with it!

tmr we'll be watching spiderman 3!!! woohoo. with new classmateys!!! it's special cos it's the first time. cos i usually watch it with van and stef. and chloe. so ya! it's great! . hehe. i'll try meeting chloe up this week and we'll go shopping! hoho. and i got to buy a pair of nike this week too. yupp. tt's all

-awesome day ahead! (:

memories strayed back to the early times.

2007-04-30T18:31:00.000+08:00

It was atrocious!

Awkward talking to you, even looking at you.

although you were there with us,

i couldnt bring myself to talk to you.

i never felt like this before!

Sequence of events happen today and ytd:

hehe. i'll start from ytd. ytd WAS a great day and i find that

i looked great ytd! hoho. maybe it's a self compliment.but

becos i rarely wear all black so ya. i wore super high heels.

and it was crazy! like the pain after sometime. really.and

causing my feet to be swollen! hoho. anyway i brought a extra

pair of shoes. so nvm! hoho. wanted to buy shoes and manymany

clothes but i turned out buying one shirt from future state. and

lunch from Gelare. tt's how i spent the money given. it was terrible.

okay! today!!! hoho. prayed abt my exams! english. how the lord

would guide me through the exams and have super memory. heh.

and it really came out! hoho. whatever i read through the night

before. and the lack of sleep didnt affect me doing the paper

too. hoho. thank you jesus! hoho. and today i cldnt go home so

i stayed awhile with pauline and eileen, later i went off with

eileen to my uncle's hse and she went cp. hoho. i slept in the

house. it was really comfortable and went home. so i took 163

alone. and during the bus trip,i sat with her cute guy wearing

a suit!!! aaaah!!! it was super cool! i didnt dare to turn my head

to look at him. haha. but i saw his face k! CUTE, HANDSOME, TALL!

maybe cute guys wearing a suit turns me on! hoho. it was great!

lovelove it. and i ate alot today. but anyway going running later!

i'll be running for an hour!!! hoho.

THANKS EVERYONE FOR EVERYTHING THESE FEW DAYS! LOVE YOU PPL! YOU ALL ARE THE MAN AND WOMAN! LOVES!

-Obedience to faith

I saw you however you avoided my eye contact.

2007-04-16T19:40:00.000+08:00

You're happy, i saw that.

maybe she's the reason why.

i shant WANT you anymore.

it's not worth. it's not.

today's CHLOE's birthday! heh. sent her a birthday msg already! yupp. anyway today eileen came my house. today was super tired! slept alot in school. today didnt study much! and my calculator is out of batt!!! and i ran out of foolscap! today was horrible!

kept praying to the lord today. i'm really worried abt my 2.4! it's madness. i kept saying in my heart to cast my cares to the lord. kept thinking of what pastor prince said. 'Dont look within but look to CHRIST!' and i got to do so. he's the only one who cans do stuff for me and guide me through.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHLOE!

Dearest CHLOE,

missed you tons! but i saw you ytd and spent all our retarded mins doing retarded stuff and shopping of cos!!! heh. and you're older than me!! it's unfair!!! uh! anyway still love you! and i'll mail you soon! ((:

loves,

kezia

ps: love the lame photos we took in public! heh.

-CHRIST is the one i shld turn to!

just had to tell you. feeling bad is way worse!

2007-04-11T21:01:00.000+08:00

free my mind, stop clinging onto me!

you go venturing out in the big big world,

and when you are in hot soup,

you come crawling back to me.

expecting me to clear up this horrid mess for you?

stop this shit now!

This is a REALITY CHECK for you!

Chloe's Birthday is coming!!! woohoo` i gotta meet up. i mean book an appointment. hoho. i've not met her for a really really really long time. like seriously long! ohhhhhhhhh how much i missssss that girl, she's like my BFFL from my childhood! heh. just sent her a mail.

had fun with van ytd. hoho. we ate xi de guo dong. hoho. it's so cool. yupp and she taught me how to skip! as in 'skipping rope'? hoho. yupp. and we maybe going out together this weekend! heh. AWESOMELY exciting! with STEF too. hoh.

fucking shit happens these few days. maybe cause i have real bad mood swings lately and ppl keeps harrassing me the whole day when i'm in school! it's horrid!!! and joel's behaviour ytd was rather bizarre but thank god he's back to himself today. (: yupp. overall, the day was horrible yet again. pray for a better day! amen!

-where does true love comes from?

I've always told you what i felt! do you even try telling me how you feel?

2007-04-09T18:37:00.000+08:00

It began innocently,

both of us didnt expect anything out from it.

i'm amazed by how fast your heart feels for someone.

i wonder if it's really you or someone else who did it.

it can never be you...i guess.

i'm feeling feverish! it's terrible. so anyway. i started reading bible promises for teens last night. it was quite good. i felt closer to the lord and i could talk to him and all nowadays. i really believe in him for lots of things.

these few days i became a super slacker. exams are nearing but i'm not mugging!! HOW CAN?! i need this Os! it's a major. i need to learn the courses i want to! it's crazy pressure but i aint doing anything! uh!!! pissed with myself. but shant the less. jesus is here with me!!! loves!

P.S: thetwosisters really sell great stuff. you ppl shld check it out. GIRLS i mean! i seldom praise blogshops k! so must check it out! hoho

-Jesus is always here, he never left!

RAINBOW!

2007-04-02T19:08:00.000+08:00

the storm has calm down.

i have my friends to keep me busy.

you have your girlfriend to be with you.

i wont be bothered by your sight anymore.

i'm done and out with you!

i've not been blogging consistently though. there's lots of other things to do though. this week is a CT week. and the past week i have been visiting clay. pray that he'll be well. and i know he will.

today i was really emo and depressed till crazy like literally. with pauline! eileen was with 'ahem!' so didnt bother her. yupp. it was fun though. depression leads to literal craziness! but still love them both! like alot!heh. so this week will be a fun week. even the pe is fun cos the vice principal would be watching our class run and it's retarded to do so. and there's the family day!!! and this friday i'll be going CHINATOWN!!! awesome!!! yupp. anyway i'm going to watch my girl now!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY,

MY PRECIOUS PRECIOUS

YUMIN!

Dear girlfriend

happy birthday! you shld enjoy and be happy cos it's your day!

so cheer up and i apologise for not giving you a pressie today but i'll confirm

give you one. trust me! it'll be a nice one too! heh. so cheer up.

you're so loved by us all! lovelovelove yumin!!! and rmb tt you have me! ((:

LOVES KEZIA!

-There's always a new day

My heart's Grieving! )':

2007-03-30T22:10:00.000+08:00

for you i really will.

to see you being 'tortured',

i feel saddened by it.

i'm incapable to do anything for you.

recover soon! we'll be waiting!

why one day can changed so much?

-Jesus will heal him!

I'm DONE WITH.

2007-03-28T22:08:00.000+08:00

I'm through!

Perchance cos i didnt bother trying.

but i know the answer.

so why bother?! i'm really over it.

All perturbed is what he want me to feel.

and i will never succumb!

Melancholic days have past. it's all over! i guess. this week was a lollipop week. li hao gave me a lolly on thursday or smth. so sweet. i thought he was kiddding though. then on monday night i told shoe i love lollies , he gave me the next day during chinese. Aww. so sweet. i'm so touched. and today, shah gave me a TIN! really nice of him. he gave pauline too though. yupp. and i felt bad not giving ppl lollies cos i didnt bare to open. so tmr i'll be distributing the lollies to 30 ppl who wants it. hoho. like lolly santa. hoho. yupp.

found out smth depressing though. yupp. i didnt know why had tears in my eyes. it's all so weird. and clay is in hospital. got to visit him tmr. GET WELL SOON DUDE!!! ((: love by us all.

GIVEN BY SHAH! isnt it sweet?!

-Vulnerable is what i've become

Without Choices.

2007-03-24T22:27:00.000+08:00

hoho!

failure though. Girls VS Guys! Smile! ((:

i saw it with my own eyes.

couldnt believe it though.

i guess it's over. broken. everything bad.

give up is the word. ):

the mood has faded AWAY~

-thought too much in depth.

It's all inequitable.

2007-03-22T20:30:00.000+08:00

She's all you think about,

she's all you care about.

you dont give a damn about the people around you.

it seems like you are alone with her in your world.

i'm not wanting you not being with her,

or maybe i am.

i dont see you happy with her but why her!

and not others that can make you happy?

fucking forget this shit!

i grew closer to eileen after camp and the training. it's great being with her. being emo, sad, angry and irritated together. but she influences the irritation though. love love her. and pauline, she's awesome too k. but sadly, she's damn sick. missing all the training and she got to make it all up when she gets well. it'll be really hard i guess. yupp.

school's good i guess. other than getting teased and all. it's all cool. starting to have no appetite. and tt's gd. i wont be eating tmr!!! hoho. anyway i just finished my geog project! it's not perfect but it's my very best in this short 4 days.

these days, it seems that smth has been pulling me from reading the word. and i gave in to it for the past 3 days but not today. i make it a point to read at least a verse before being distracted and all. and now cos of parents meeting, i wont be able to care group and all! it's saddening. but at least i'll be finding stef, yu min all in the evening after all the shit. and on sat, there's a fashion show!!! awesome. i'll be going!!! hoho. yupp.that's all.

-how much further will i go for you?

Confounding Situation.

2007-03-19T19:55:00.000+08:00

*raising the white flag*

i blew it! i really did!

what am i supposed to do now?

say no more!

i'll just be lonely yet again.

there's nothing suprising about.

i have so much anger, hatred, depression. everything! today was a horrid day! i guess there was a little laughter. i was laughing and talking the whole time during class but it just wasnt right. i didnt want it, it was for some reason there was all those stuff. and anyway school suck recently, my attitude=laziness, studies=okay?

it's all messed up. there's lots to say but i dont know how to start though. so forget it all.

-it's the limit i guess.

it's all a sham!

2007-03-18T19:26:00.000+08:00

it all happened so quickly,

one snap, and he's gone.

i wanted more but i wasted it all.

oh how i wish...

the suckishly short holiday will be ending in a few hours. so i'll be back in school, doing the oh-so-routine that i've been doing. how suckish can it get?!

i recently wonder i dun like going school or homework because i wont be able to accomplish the work given to me and odac tt ruin my school life! i committed alot into odac. my whole school life was about odac,odac,odac! now i'm clueless. i dun noe a shit about my school-life. maybe it's just studying, tests, practise, get good grades. heck about odac. odac is my second priority now.

went dare ytd. felt a lil left out. it didnt feel right. it's the feeling like i dun mind not going as no one wanted me there and all. today went main church, thoughts ran through my mind. i was thinking how far was i from jesus in the short 1 week. even though i was in school, i still felt close with the lord. now i find that i see jesus so far away from the cross than sitting at his feet listening to him. it's crazy! i want to be close to the lord. i dont want to lose faith in him! it's a terrible feeling. i'll pray about it!!!

i really pray for a great day tmr. the starting of school will be awesome. i'll look forward to it. the lord will guide me through! amen.

-jesus is the same, ytd, today & forever!

and me?

Fragile is what i've become.

2007-03-16T19:28:00.000+08:00

clueless!

i know nothing, i remember nothing.

maybe that's a good thing.

everything's been forgotten!

happiness rushes in,

sadness flows out.

odac camp was the worst of the worst camp i ever went. only those sec 3s who went felt the same. TORTURE-OUS! uh. FUCKING camp! we had plans of escaping it every night. it's not the sec 1s. they're okay. felt bonded with them with the damn walk. the teachers was horrible. slack!! we shld be slacking. the sec 3s earned it!!! we went through countless punishment to get to an advisory stage. but what fuck, all those shit are for nothing! nothing at all. we're still back to square 1! uh! now what's commitment to odac or mt k or even the teachers! sometimes i did it just for the teachers! now there's nth to commit to! doubts arouse.

forget about fucking commitments. went chalet-ing ytd. it was just slacking retardedly and bbq-ing for awhile, little while. yupp. it was fun though. thanks for inviting me!!! hoho. bonded with them yet again. lovelovelove them. they're lots of fun. and i'm really sorry about last night ppl. i didnt know what i was doing. thanks for taking care of me too!!!

i guess i cried it all out so i should be stronger and all. however i feel more emotional. wanting to cry over very little things. lord, i need you. your support! i have not lost faith but i failed to go to you when i'm at my lowest. i neglected you, not you neglect me! )): i'm sorry. really sorry. i need you lord!!! give me strength to stand up and face all these challenges coming my way!

-Lord, all i need is you. only you.

This is Not EVASION.

2007-03-08T18:43:00.000+08:00

i'm speechless. in such circumstances,

it's one of the party wrong or isit both wrong?

isnt it such a pity we are left in this state?

this should not had happened

Now, we are left with awkwardness.

suckish stuff happens. so be it.

geog hw!!! oh man. it's terrible! it's so much. i got to do the whole report by myself and if it's copied from ppl or books, all must be honestly written out. it's too much! and i have really little time to do it. ALERT! CAMP'S TMR! i'm still considering whether to go or fake sick. even VANESSA'S going! i must go too! i'll miss D2P3!

mentally strenuous here! however, my GOD is a good GOD! today, i read the bible in the morning, it's proverbs. the first 3 chap are about obedience i find, especially the 2 i think. yupp.

these few days people are having melancholy mood. it's really contagious but i have the lord! so i'll try my very best to cheer those ppl up! my latest discover is that some people think too much and they're self-obsessed! they alway over-look themselves and people! they always think of themselves and only themselves! it's despicable! if people treat them the way they're being treated, the ppl shld have reasons for their actions. and they are not allowed to despise other ppl. no one shld! the 'despicable' people shld reflect on themselves. and i get so pissed easily by such people!

oh my, i almost forgotten about the physics test! it was an average people but i didnt come study cos i was really tired last night. so i'm losing precious marks this way! and i finally got my chem wb!!! woohoo` but i've yet to buy my A math text. joel was teasing me :'kezzy, so pro! no text also can get the highest! pro!' but he's the superb one. he got highest for so many tests!!! unfair! hoho. same same. he's good. (: yupp.

For you:

we were close then, but things have changed so much. we cant do much abt it, the environment changed too. friends, we hang out with different people and we cant go against it. we just have to follow it. so you better not think too much. you meant alot to me when i was feeling the worst and you were there. i really thank you for that. but we got to suit the changes.

it's all contradistinct.

Learning is a process of life.

2007-03-07T19:44:00.000+08:00

felt all so lost and out of place,

amazingly, i still think about you

out of the blue.

i always believed you were forgotten,

but somehow you are still lingering in my mind.

there are lots of 'what if','if we'.

i was longing to clear those doubts.

but now that we're apart,

all i want is to have 1 more chance with you.

it's been somewhat a period of time since i've blog.i intended to blog some posts a couple of time. however, i got fed up not knowing to write and didnt have enough time and all. cos this week's somewhat packed!

recent events: i fell 'superwoman'ly! it was an embarrassment!

all of them kept teasing me! evil! thank god for his protection for me.

it's just minor wounds. but it's super pain! it's been so long i last fell! so

anyway, got back the A math ct i've been working really hard for. all glory

to the lord! he did it! i've got 29/30! woohoo~ i got to thank joel too! he had

patience in me! was really happy. my E math i had 28/30. not too bad

though. god has been guiding me!

had the first endurance run last fri! and it was torturing. i almost died.

i kept saying in my mind: not too stop not too stop! and i really didnt stop.

woo-hoo~~ and bukit timah training was terrible. it was mentally and physically strenuous! i was saying in my heart/mind: rest in the lord, rest in the lord!!! and i made it too. hoho!!!

friday's the day. i'll be going camp and missing D2P3! positive thinking! god has better plans ahead to join dare! hoho. i'm still reading the bible everyday.

hoho. and i started reading storybooks again. it's a hobby suddenly. hoho.

oh ya. i'm closer with dearest eileen & pauline!!! lovelovelove them.

yupp. and zenda tagged!!! wooohooo! i've missed her so much! yupp. lovelove.

i've failed to meet chloe several times and we promised each other we

got to meet! and we will! promise is a promise. hoho.

missing someone = regretting that they arent present

Loving it!

2007-02-28T21:32:00.000+08:00

Life's been good recently. Nothing big really happened and all. yupp. just lots of homework and projects to hand in before hols. ODAC camp is coming and all. i have to rush through the proposal. however naqib fails to come to school and online when i'm on. i so got to get hold of him soon! or else i'll be dead! it's all me for mess com. yupp.

Many things happened recently! it's somehow weird and mysterious. yupp.

but it's not happening to me. oh ya, i kept meditating on previous sermon on Sunday! haha. tt's awesome to me. heh. yupp. and i started listening more 'into' lyrical song. meaning tt loving songs with great lyrics! hoho. yupp. the song i put in my blog is nice!!! like super! hoho. i randomly listened it the other time when i was stressed out and all. hoho. yupp. but the rest of the stuff arent mine! yupp.

These few days, we've been a lil' up and down though. maybe's the weather and all. yupp. i've been really tired recently and all. however there's a huge friendship challenge i've to go through. i'll pull through! i can do it! Kezia can do it because Jesus has gone through all those challenges already! ((: POSITIVE!

-Jesus is always the light!

Happy Day! (:

2007-02-24T21:30:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

MY DEAREST

STEFA-NEH!!!

to stef:

love you!!! we'll be friends till the end of the world with all the neh ppl. hahas. yupp. hope you had a great time with beloved THEM and all. yupp. sorry about not turning up and all. i'll tell you why during chinese lessons! hahas although the reason lame but you got to be forgiving. yupp. i'll crash your house soon cos hols are coming!!! love you babe! sincere apology!

Today's super fun. hahas. in the morning, i was like super late meet JQ.

i feel damn bad. yupp. went to a LAN shop and actually played some LAN game.

the experience is awesome. hahas. JQ was damn patient. seriously patient!

yupp. but i still kept dying. sadly. but it's really very good for a first-timer like me! heh. it was pretty hard to understand dota. i kept dying in dota bcos of DARREN TIANG! asshole! he kept killing. at the second time, when he wasnt suppose to kill girls, he still kept killing me! plain evil!

later we went on to play counter-strike. it was super damn fun.

i love killing enemy. hoho. but seriously the more experience kept winning.

yupp. so now onwards, i'll go lan shop every week before training too! hoho.

AWESOME!!! today was super awesome! yupp. great experience.

-Fear not as it has all been planned out!

ChanGed!

2007-02-22T17:21:00.000+08:00

i've just changed my braces color! wooo-hoo~~~ hahas. it's my

favourite color. AWESOME! i saw a pretty young little girl. she's so cute!

yupp. so anyway, today was still tiring and all

had lots of fun in class. love one side of the class suddenly. hahas.

although they are really annoying and all but they are fun to be with.

Saw holly's profile in friendster a while go. it's been so long i've seen her. missed her!!! i miss chloe too. it's good that i still msg her and all. hoho. yupp. we'll meet up soon and all. i've been really busy recently. tests, getting back tests, mt. k training and odac annual camp and all. yupp. lost contact! yupp.

so recently, starting from this yr i guess.

i've recently found out that i got to read my bible in the morning or i wont have a peace of mind.

yupp. that's so cool! it's a habit/hobby! hoho.

yupp. so now, i'm praying for lots of things!

hoho. AWESOME! yupp.

AWESOME-NESS awaits! (:

i thought i could.

2007-02-21T17:55:00.000+08:00

Those were the Days

Oh man. i so thought that i would be able to make it for DaretoPlay 3. i had a glimpse of hope man. i thought it was next week. but i forgotten it was on the 1oth instead on 3rd. so anyway i wont be able to make it. but i really hope miraculously i'll be able to make it and all.

i chatted with Alyn just now. it's been so long i've spoken to her. maybe last last week was the last time i've msged her. she's awesome. love her! i miss her alot. i miss those days.[above picture] she reminded me when we're having trouble or all stressed up, we'll just rest in god. she's so cool. lovelovelove her.

Back in school again, was kinda short day i guess. yupp. was quite happy seeing pauline and eileen again. hahas. cos i wasnt able to meet up with them though. yupp. i read 2 stories in the bible this morning, it was about samuel. i think god is so cool when he called upon samuel and instructed him what to do or what would happen. yupp. but the 2nd one was more interesting, but somehow it was like a childhood story. yupp.

hoho. today was a happy day.

it's about smth happy of cos!

and about zenda too!

hahas. she tagged me like finally after so long.

Dearest Zenda,

Do not lose your faith and trust in God! through these stressful mugging, you've got to rest in him also k. go to church/DARE k! however, i wont be going to DARE for quite sometime and all. but you should go and receive the word k. yupp. i can go church with you! wenhui too. yupp. then we can meet up and catch up with each other. love you.

[and i may get into RS!!! haas. and wu zun is really good looking!!!]

CNY!

2007-02-18T22:04:00.000+08:00

Today's Chinese New Year[Chu yi]. hoho. it's a happy day though. had steamboat again for lunch. later went to grandma's house for visiting. it's been really long since we went there. yupp. it was boring but saw my cousins. yupp. later i went to church. met wen hui, she looked really nice today. hahas. pre-tty! hahas. yupp. went indoor stadium today. i couldnt see many ppl though. hahas. cos i didnt wear contacts today. yupp. saw claudia, alicia, er-ley, jerald and all. yupp. the serving was boring cos the translation made me confused and all. yupp. and i felt super bad leaving wen hui. oh man. sorry dear. i feel really bad. )): yupp. today valentia was supposed to come and meet me but she couldnt make it last min. so sad and all. missed her. hope to see her soon though.

today, was a really happy day, it's not cos of the 'hong baos' and all. part of the reason was seeing wenhui and the other part was a 'snap'. although i cannot see but yupp. haha. hoho. hehe. really happy though. the blurred view is still in my head!!! ahhh. exaggerating. okay. nvm. later i'll be going to watch 'ghost rider' later. yupp. it'll be fun. yupp.

it's a blessed new beginning! ((:

BLOG RENEWED! (:

2007-02-17T18:08:00.000+08:00

WEN HUI! woohoo~~
My blog has been screwed for really long. i was like so fucked up with it and i gave up on it. but thank god for naqib. he revived it!!! woo-hoo~. AWESOME! anyway all common tests have all been done. really have to thank god for everything! i've learnt more abt him. i started reading the bible, learn lots of stuff. hoho.

So anyway, i went out ytd to find a cardigan tt i will 'fall in love' with it but i didnt find it. sadly. anyway went out with shi en at first but she wasnt feeling well so i went with stef,van and joanna to shop around cos they have lots of shopping to do. later i went to find wenhui,preston and all. we went to watch a extreme super lame movie:epic movie!!! oh man. i laughed till i cried. it's so damn funny. i think the guys tt we went with were evil but funny. hahas. so anyway, i'll never forget this movie and the ppl i went with. hahas. yupp. thanks ya'll for watching with me. i had an awesome time. 2 photos i took with wenhui ytd!

So today i went to the doctor to check my eye. it was terrible but not severe so thank god for it. so i have to put eye drop and eye cream on the eye ball. yupp. so tmr's the cny service! cant wait though. it's seems like i've not been going to church for quite awhile however i go to church every week. yupp. anyway loves!

it's AWESOME!

2007-01-15T15:50:00.000+08:00

God is good. i was lagging behind before but not now. this year's stuff is quite hard. especially the sciences. i really need help in it. and geog too. thank god for the teacher and jessica. and thank god for joel to help me in math. he's really great. anyway i dread going to school but school always turn out awesome after praying for it. yupp. bye. GOD IS AWESOME!

Big day's coming.

2007-01-02T20:59:00.000+08:00

tmr's the day. school's re-opening. i'm somewat getting nervous & all.

oh man. it's like i dun noe what to expect.

new class, new environment, new combi and all.

all my friends arent there. not quite ready though.

i really need god through the whole year.

i'm not concentrating and all. i want to but i aint doing anything.

i so cant slack already. i seriously cant.

oh man. i feel pressure for the year.

god will take away all pressure. yayness. okay.

anyway, i started being quite excited after so many calling me.

heh. cant wait though. must pray a prayer tonight and tmr morning.

saying a prayer in the morning starts the morning and praying at night locks the night! ((: heh.

yupp. going off already. yupp. check out my photo album at

http://keziamemories.spaces.live.com/

miss valentia. misses.

New Beginning...

2007-01-01T23:42:00.000+08:00

it's a new year and a new beginning.

i'm honestly excited for the new year but not for school.

cos i'm really excited for what god will do in my life.

it's so exciting. heh. i love NICE suprises. yupp.

anyway i didnt feel like posting cos of smth. hahas.

but i still posted. hoho. school's re-opening soon.

so soon! hw's un-touched yet. okay. maybe some.

going out tmr. coolness.

oh ya. i love JESSE MCcARTNEY'S voice.

when i listened to his songs, i just melt.

it's like damn nice. wen hui agrees too.

hoho. just started liking nelly furtado's all good things come to an end.

under my sister's influence. yupp.

so yupp. abt sister, she's slacking till july/august.

waiting for her A levels. yupp.

so anyway, constance is funny/lame.

valentia is so cute. heh.

hohoho.

I STILL MISS VALENTIA!!! misses!

AT LAST DARE OF THE YEAR!

2007-01-01T01:18:00.000+08:00

GO HUPER 1~ loves.
ANGUS IS MISSING!

BLESSED CHILDREN!
YAYNESS~ Huper!

TOO BAD, SHE LOVES ME!

CHEESE!
YAY!

CHEER UP ALYN! HEH.
ALYN ME CHARMAINE!

ME AND ALYN CAMWHORING. LOVE TT BABE SO MUCH! THIS IS DEDICATED TO YOU, ALYN! THANKS. LOVE YOU BABE!!!

CAMWHORING!!!

2006-12-31T19:16:00.000+08:00

Oh man. he look good here in small pic than big. *melting!*

YAY MORE CAMWHORING!

Sheryl always look good. unfair! heh.
Both of them look good! (:
RETARDED! hoho.
NICE! YAY!
hahas. today, i woke up at 6.30!!! tt's damn early. anyway went to meet zenda and all. i was so damn late. anyway went kallang and met wenhui and sheryl. zenda kept talking abt her drama show and all. hahas. anyway chloe came!!! hohoho. so then. kept talking to wenhui and constance but more to wenhui. anyway constance is really nice to talk to. heh. VALENTIA DIDNT COME!!! I MISSS HER! so then after service i went far east with chloe. yupp. we ate there then sheryl and zenda came. hohoho. later we walked around aimlessly. after awhile chloe left. bye chloe. yup then it was left me sheryl zenda. zenda went to buy her school bag at leftfoot. it was great i like tt bag. so then hahas. while waiting outside i saw super cute guy with super cute hair and look super cute reading comics innocently outside the shop. oh man. i went outside to stand and i looked at him from the corner of my eyes.yupp. anyway later when we came down. he changed direction of reading. he look cuter!!! oh man. anyway, sheryl pretended taking photos of me zenda but she cldnt take so i took!!! oh man. he looks great! but too bad he was with 2 girls! uh!
anyway got to go.

I MISS VALENTIA!!!! LIKE ALOT!!!!

i feel damn blessed. (:

2006-12-29T10:47:00.000+08:00

Runaway Love - Ludacris feat. Mary J. Blige
The verses only (:
[Verse 1 - Ludacris]
Now little lisa is only 9 years old
Shes tryin to figure out why the world is so cold
Why shes all all alone and they never met her family
Mamas always gone and she never met her daddy
Part of her is missin and nobody will listenin
Mama is on drugs gettin high up in the kitchen
Bringin home men at different hours of the night
Startin with some laughs--usually endin in a fight
Sneak into her room while her mamas knocked out
Tryin to have his way and little lisa says 'ouch'
She tries to resist but then all he does is beat her
Tries to tell her mom but her mama don't believe her
Lisa is stuck up in the world on her own
Forced to think that hell is a place called home
Nothin else to do but some get some clothes and pack
She says shes bout to run away and never come back.
[Verse 2 - Ludacris]
Little nicole is only 10 years old
Shes steady tryin to figure why the world is so cold
Why shes not pretty and nobody seems to like her
Alcoholic step dad always wanna strike her
Yells and abuses, leaves her with some bruises
Teachers ask questions she makin up excuses
Bleedin on the inside, cryin on the out
Its only one girl really knows what she about
Her name is lil stacy and they become friends
Promise that they always be tight til the end
Until one day lil stacy gets shot
A drive by bullet went straight up on her block
Now nicole stuck up in the world on her own
Forced to think that hell is a place called home
Nothin else to do but some get some clothes and pack
She says shes bout to run away and never come back.

[Verse 3 - Ludacris]
Little erica is eleven years old
Shes steady tryin to figure why the world is so cold
So she pops pills to get rid of all the pain
Cause shes havin sex with a boy whos sixteen
Emotions run deep and she thinks shes in love
So theres no protection hes usin no glove
Never thinkin bout the consequences of her actions
Livin for today and not tomorrows satisfaction
The days go by and her belly gets big
The father bails out he aint ready for a kid
Knowin her mama will blow it all outta proportion
Plus she lives poor so no money for abortion
Erica is stuck up in the world on her own
Forced to think that hell is a place called home
Nothin else to do but get her clothes and pack
She say shes about to run away and never come back.

these stuff arent happening in my house and it's a thank god thing. or i'll just commit suicide but they are strong enough to like just runaway.

JUST SO YOU KNOW!

2006-12-28T23:29:00.000+08:00

I shouldn't love you,
but I want to.
I just can't turn away.
I shouldn't see you,
but I can't move.
I can't look away.

And I don't know,
how to be fine when I'm not.
Cause I don't know,
how to make the feeling stop.
Just so you know

This feeling's taking control of me,
and I can't help it.
I won't sit around,
I can't let him win now.
Thought you should know,
I tried my best to let go of you,
but I don't want too.
I just gotta say it all before I go.
Just so you know.

It's getting hard to,
be around you.
There's so much I can't say.
Do you want me to have the feelings?
And look the other way.

And I don't know,
how to be fine when I'm not.
Cause I don't know,
how to make the feeling stop.
Just so you know.

This feeling's taking control of me,
and I can't help it.
I won't sit around,
I can't let him win now.
Thought you should know,
I tried my best to let go of you,
but I don't want too.
Just gotta say it all before I go. (Just so you know)

This emptiness is killing me,
I'm wonderin' why I've waited so long.
Looking back I realize,
it was always there,
just never spoken.
I'm waiting here,
been waiting here.

Just so you know,
this feeling's take control of me,
and I can't help it.
I won't sit around,
I can't let him win now.
Thought you should know,
I tried my best to let go of you,
but I don't want too.
Just gotta say it all before I go.
Just so you know.
(Whoa,
Just so you know,
Whoa,
Thought you should know.)

I tried my best to let go of you,
but I don't want to.
Just gotta say it all before I go,
just so you know.
Just so you know.

oooooooh. i love this song. love at first listen? hahas. sometimes i feel like tt? yupp. anyway try listening to it. and another song runaway love by ludacris feat. mary j. blige

i came back. ((:

2006-12-28T20:20:00.000+08:00

hi. i just came back to singapore like 2 am today. err. damn tired, wardrobe damn full, clothes damn dirty, shoes damn black, i miss loads of ppl. yupp. so anyway the trip was really like SHOPPING SHOPPING AND MORE SHOPPING. but it was damn polluted! yupp. so i talked to god alot cos the place was dirty and he got to protect me from everything dirty. hahas. yupp. i could feel myself dying! like literally. the air was fucking bad. couldnt breathe properly and all. yupp. so anyway slept alot and i so got to go out tmr with anyone. call me!!! yupp. i suddenly like jesse mcCartney's new song i saw on mtv just now. i think is just say so. is damn sad. i love the song. yupp. and i suddenly like this new drama i randomly watched on channel 8. it's like damn nice but irritatingly irritating. hahas. but it's hard to catch the chinese though. cos it's a lil' fast. yupp. and i missed the christmas service this yr. ))): i never miss the christmas services like never since i've been in the church meaning forever. yupp. so anyway see you ppl soon k! misses! i suddenly miss 6hope oh so much! )): see you ppl soon k!

great day! ((:

2006-12-22T21:56:00.000+08:00

hahas. today is a great day for naps. i slept like so much today. i so can sleep more but i gotta pack my bag. dun noe what to wear and all. yupp. anyway it's damn sad cos i'll be missing this yr's christmas service. tt's damn sad can. like i never missed any of the christmas service the church has before can. this is the first time!!! okay. pray tt god sends the word to me spiritually when i'm at thailand. hahas. i'll be shopping like mad. till i drop! seriously.
i'm getting stuff for:
VALENTIA! ZENDA! CHLOE! WENHUI! SHERYL! GRACELIM! VANESSA! XINYI! SHIEN! preston. JERALD! SHIRMAINE! ALYN! JUSTIN!! MABEL! CONSTANCE! CANDICE! LAURA!

yupp. around there. tag me to tell me if i forgot you if you're my close friends. ((:

Fully booked. ((:

2006-12-22T10:41:00.000+08:00

hahas. this whole last 2 weeks is so booked man. like everyday there's stuff or stuff crops up. yupp. anyway, i havent done my hw but i'm going on hols tmr. hahas. really need god's favour on my hw. AMEN. hahas. anyway so then ytd night went to my class gathering. it wasnt tt great can. but you see them having fun was great. anyway i was sitting on the rocks by the beach. it was damn windy. so it was freezing cold. i was so damn cold. but i still sat there it was damn nice. yupp. the day was great and i was telling alastair what god was showing to me the day before. when you look at the shore, there's always water coming up and all. and it'll always go back to the sea again. so it shows tt whatever bad stuff we do or have already done, god will always forgive and take us back. ((:

yupp. so ytd was a damn tired day. oh ya then we saw syed's friends.

sorry zenda i was damn tired and worn out by the day. see you later. (:

KEZIA'S OFF !

UP UP & AWAY~

God is good.

2006-12-21T10:59:00.000+08:00

ytd was damn fun. went out with zenda, wenhui, jerald, preston,joshua, jon seow, sam and claire. later marlon, jack, celeste and cheryl came. yupp. anyway before they came. all of us were cycling. all of us prayed for it to not rain. oh man. when we came it was slightly drizzling, then me, wen hui and zenda prayed again. then kept saying amen. hahas. anyway me and wen hui ride the double one. yupp. it was so fun. hahas. so long never exercise already. oh man. straight to the point, our day was awesome!!! god is good noe. because zenda's double somewhat broke and our bikes were late cos of the bike. so we were to choose to pay for the spoilt bike or the late bikes's hour. so we chose the late one tt cost $49. yupp. oh man. jon seow was amazing!!! he just sat there and kept praying in tongues. oh man. he's damn HOLY can. then it turned out that we do not need to pay a single cent! wooohooo~~~ the power of praying in tongues!!! yupp. hahas.

and VALENTIA IS BACCCCCKKKKK!!! I MISSED HER!!!!

i had fun with you guys ytd!!! love you ppl! ((:

GOD is AWESOME!

KEZIA'S OFF!

UP UP & AWAY~~

thanks david! (:

2006-12-17T23:44:00.000+08:00

oh man. oh how much i love you lord!!! i love you like sososososo much. you're so great! you helped me so much in so MUCH stuff. and you know what i've been through. the really terrible moments. and what bad stuff i've done you have already forgiven me. i love you lord!!!

You stood before creation
Eternity within Your hand
You spoke all life into motion
My soul now to stand

You stood before my failure
Carried the Cross for my shame
My sin weighed upon Your shoulders
My soul now to stand

So what can I say
What can I do
But offer this heart O God
Completely to You

So I'll walk upon salvation
Your Spirit alive in me
This life to declare Your promise
My soul now to stand

So I'll stand
With arms high and heart abandoned
In awe of the One who gave it all
So I'll stand
My soul Lord to You surrendered
All I am is Yours

Show me Your heart
Show me Your way
Show me Your glory

oh man. this song is damn nice. i lovelovelove it! ((:

I'm HOLY!

2006-12-17T21:24:00.000+08:00

You are my lord, you are my god.

You're the only one who conquered the grave.

In you i believe, your love i receive.

You will always be my king.

You are my lord, you're the shepherd of my life.

You are the lover of my soul.

AMEN AMEN AMEN! hahas.

This weekend is the most AWESOME weekend i ever had in my entire life! oh man. talk abt being in the lord's presence, totally committed to him. not doing anything else. just to know more abt him and talk abt him, be with him, talk to him. everything is abt him. it's entirely abt him!!! oh man. church is a wonderful place. anyway besides that i'm made friends with really great and awesome friends like zenda,alyn,wenhui, jerald and VALENTIA. they are awesome. i had fun with them both sat and sun! oh how much i love them. i love the lord alot too. hahas. i can see him smiling at me now. hohoho. anyway it's just great being with jesus. and how amazing the stuff he does to my life. ((:

LORD, I LOVELOVELOVELOVELOVELOVELOVELOVE

ETERNALLY LOVING YOU!

BOO!!! I KNOW YOU ETERNALLY LOVE ME TOO! ((:

KEZIA'S OFF!

UP UP & AWAY~

i enjoyed dare. ((:

2006-12-17T00:45:00.000+08:00

cause my god reigns always,

till the end of the days.

gonna stand tall, stand strong.

cause jesus is the lord of all!!!

hahas. somewhat the lyrics. it's been in my head.

today's dare service was AWESOME!

it's the last dare of the year. i suddenly like dare alot.

yupp. anyway, justin was so sweet, he gave me a candy cane.

aww. so sweet. hahas. i'll get him smth for christmas too!

anyway, made a new friend called han yuan. hahas.

it's damn hyped up like alyn. hahas. they've been talking alot together.

hahas. anyway, he's a fair dude too.

yupp. went dinner with zenda wen hui celeste.

the dare ppl were dare. hahas. united dare stand. yupp.

walked to the station with wenhui zenda celest er-ley and darryl

hahas. i had so much fun walking with them.

especially er-ley, he's one retarded ass.

anyway, i went back zenda. it was so cool!

she rocks. wen hui rocks too. er-ley too. darryl too.

yupp. going second tmr. so i think i'm going to sleep soon.

good night world! (((:

KEZIA'S OFF!

UP UP & AWAY~

NIGHT SAFARI

2006-12-16T02:02:00.000+08:00

today i went night safari!!! okay. rewind.

today i went to get books with man.

cos he was there to help me carry home. yupp.

anyway later i went far east to get earrings

and went to wisma to get a shirt at topman for my cousin. and later went taka to get stuff for my lovely friends. anyway so then i went night safari. god opened my eyes. i knew he did. it was not abt the animals noe. it was abt the boys. oh man. the japanese boys/guys were like fucking cute!!! oh man. i kept looking at them. oh man. there were like so many grps can. yupp. anyway, i felt god was showing tt there are still so many cute/good-looking & rich & caring guys out there. i do not need just stay at one. to think of it, if he could open my eyes to see that, he would also allow a special guy to come into my life unknowingly. yupp. cos the ppl working there were also saying abt it. like why there were so many jap ppl around and all. so anyway. thank you lord!!! it's finally, he's gone far far away. hahas. i feel so different after camp. as in not straight after it noe. it's like i doubted god for a few days but i remembered not to doubt god. he knows what's ahead of me so let him do it. yupp. so as a result, i'm a different person. ((: and i'm happy with it. thank you lord!

KEZIA'S OFF!

UP UP & AWAY~

boredom~

2006-12-14T22:59:00.000+08:00

oh man. zenda isnt online, i so cant talk to her.
i suddenly got used to talking to her everyday.
then i miss her now. yupp.
anyway i got to thank little jerald for the songs.
hahas. yupp.
valentia is so cute!!! hahas. enjoy your holidays babe!
darren too. ((: hahas.
anyway. today was a retarded day.
i kept singing 'the hero in me' with the actions,
when i was working. hahas. van and me kept laughing.
yupp. so then i was making plans for tmr.
and i have NOWHERE to go!!! ))':
oh man. tt's saddening!
chloe isnt free for the first time!!! )):
oh man. all my 'best friends' are attached!
tt's damn saddening. anyway, why do i need someone when i have jesus!
hahas. yupp. so then i guess tmr i'll go find MAN and all. :P
oh ya. i so got to buy books tmr!!!
or i'll never get it. yupp.
going dare this sat. it's like i wont be going for any dare services anymore.
yupp. it's sad though but ya.

i miss VALENTIA, ZENDA! & WEN HUI!!!

BOO~~~

BOO! praise the lord!

2006-12-13T20:43:00.000+08:00

i've transformed into a HOLY KID!

lalala. today went to work in van's dad's place.

then i was like singing 'The Hero in ME', the whole time.

hahas. it's damn funny. then when we finished we slept.

so anyway we had half day. then i went to find my sis and mum.

later i did packing,i was fast then i was holy again.

i thought of how amazing i was then i sang the amazing song.

ahhas it's funny. and i love ZENDA! OH MAN! I LOVE YOU,ZENDA!

THANKS FOR EVERYTHING TOO! ((:

KEZIA'S OFF!

UP UP & AWAY~

from eileen!

2006-12-12T21:40:00.000+08:00

A - Alyn
B - Bakinshah
C - Candice
D - Darren
E - Eileen
F - Fahan
G - Grace
H - Hao Mun
I - Iffah
J - Jerald
K - Kenneth
L - Leslie
M - Mabel
N - Naqib
O - Oh man?! hahas.
P- Pauline
Q - Qiao Ting
R - Royston
S - Sheryl
T - Theresa
U- dun noe.
V - Valentia
W - Wen Hui
X - Xin yi
Y - Yu min
Z - Zenda!

1. How many siblings A have?
1 i think.
2. What does B sms you about?
everything frm going out to quarrelling stuff.
3. What is C's nickname?
CANDY!!! [no offence love]
4. How did you get to know D?
Valentia's boyfriend! (:
5. How despo is E?
hahas. i dun noe.
6. How much older/younger is F than you?
hahas. Fahan is 3 yrs older than me! old man!
7. Name 3 of G's best friends.
shi en, xin yi, esther.
8. Does H know I?
Yupp. (:
9. What happens when J suddenly turns into your enemy?
I'll be damn sad and i'll pray to the lord.
10. Under what condition will K & L get married?
Unless their gays! lol!
11. How many ppl do you know with M's name?
Only 1! (:
12. Do you enjoy talking on the phone with N?
Never tried to.
13. Do you think O knows P?
I dun even know who's O.
14. How geeky is Q?
Not at all.
15. Is R very popular?
In ODAC, YES!
16. What happens if S likes you?
I'll love her!
17. Is T a very random person?
hahas. sometimes. hahas. i miss her though.
18. How is U and V related?
There's no U.
19. Do you take W anything other than a friend?
Yupp. LOVER~ love love love her.
20. When was the last time you met up with X?
last sunday. the party they organised for me ((:
21. Are Y & Z enemies?
Nope. they dun even noe each other.
22. Of A to Z which one do you love the most?
Zenda, Wen hui, Valentia, Sheryl, Candice, Hao mun, Alyn
23. Have you loved or confessed to anyone in A to Z?
All of them above + little jerald. haha.

thank you lord!!!

2006-12-11T11:49:00.000+08:00

thank you lord.
you gave me great friends.
believes in christ ones too, tt are so into you.
you helped me through this whole week.
you knew that it sucked like mad and you've been trying so hard to let yourself in.
but stupidly, i didnt want to open up for you.
oh man.if i had opened up and let you in for you to take every sadness, failures & all fucking events tt happened.
you are one great god.
you used my friends to cheer me up and all.
jesus, now i so allow you to take away all my sadness and failures.
i want you to help me start afresh.
like i know my whole life had been transformed after EJ camp! amen.
jesus, i love you so much. i really do.
i know you love me so much more. amen lord.
no guys can compare to you.
you're the only guy that i'll love till you think tt i'm ready.
you'll be my companion, you'll be my rest, you'll be my everything lord!
oh man, oh how much i love you!!!!!!!!!!! i love you lord!!!!

thank you lord for giving me spiritual friends like:
valentia, chloe, wenhui, zenda, wenhui, alyn, william & lovely sheryl!
thank you lord for close friends frm school too!:
vanessa, shi en, xin yi, grace, stefanie, denise, javier, hao mun, candice, luke choo and so many more i guess!

i seriously want to thanks vanessa and shi en for ytd. and i want to thank chloe alyn and william for a great night! thank you all. god bless.

oh lord, pray for a blessed and smooth year for me next year. also pray that i'll be all over you and know you so much better, lord. in jesus name AMEN!

give me some time pls.

2006-12-09T11:17:00.000+08:00

sorry all. as in my closest friends. i'll be shutting off from the world, unless i'm going work. yupp. i just need some time. and dun worry, i'm okay. i really am. if you really need to contact me, just call my house. say ur name and all to the person and see if i have the mood to talk. yupp. anyway. bye world.

and for ppl tt's over-concerned. i'm not in a suicidal mood like last time. i wont cut my wrist again. seriously. it's still my birthday. and i wont do foolish/silly stuff. i believe it'll be better. i just got to let go my sadness for the lord to take care of it for me like what wen hui say. love you guys.

fucking depressed

2006-12-08T19:35:00.000+08:00

oh man. he has someone already. and i've been like an idiot. it's so depressing. tt's all so stupid. i prepared some stuff. aaahh.
fuck the feeling i'm having! fuck everything in my life. i'm damn sad now. i'm going out with ppl later i dun noe how man. oh man. he has someone already. do you noe tt.i just knew.i cried all the way home from clementi in the taxi. oh man. and no one's home.yupp. bye everything.

so many things, so little time!!!

2006-12-03T23:27:00.000+08:00

oh man, i'm fucking stress. but i cant do anything abt it. oh man. you noe wat fuck, i got to pack my camp bag before sleep. cos i'll be over at valentia's hse and i have work tmr morning till evening. oh man, and i have not called valentia to inform her any shit. oh fuck, and i'm too lazy to pack the bag!!! aaahh. so many things, i got to bring hair dryer cos my hair suck and i dun noe what stuff to bring and i have no shoes!!! oh shit. how!!! aaahh. i so dun wan to play any games!!! oh crap. the whole day have been going terribly wrong. at 12, somewat quarrelled with my best friend, morning had some msg tt i didnt reply to. i dun noe why. later cut my hair. and it's fucking ugly. okay maybe i'm exaggerating a little. it's damn thin now. yupp. anyway i quarrelled with my mum becos of my hair. she shldnt even lie abt shit stuff. and later at home. i cried to sleep. seriously. it's all fucking stupid. okay later woke up by my mum. my sis going off for prom and they were like fucking nervous. dun noe abt wat man. it's just prom. yupp. it's not like she dun have a prom date or anything. yupp. anyway. went out she forgot to bring her ticket. freaked us all out. so we left without it. later went to eat hans. and now addicted to the vlb. and super lazy to pack and now is too late!!! aaahh. pray for the time to stop???? and for me to be more hardworking????? amen.

oh man, i still like him. it sucks. and i'm sleeping now! hahas. finished packing.

KEZIA'S OFF!

UP UP & AWAY~

sucked!

2006-12-03T20:07:00.000+08:00

oh man. i just cut my hair. and it's fucking suckish. oh man. it's shit. aaahh. i stupidly cry cos i hate spike man. oh fuck. i'm going to wear cap wherever i go.
depressed mood~~

ytd was fun but ...

2006-12-03T12:35:00.000+08:00

oh. let me start frm the beginning k. ytd was a super rush day. yupp. morning i went to van's hse for her to do my hair and all. so then later i rushed to suntec to meet valentia,mabel,constance. yupp. it's been so long i saw mabel and constance. somewhat miss them and all. yupp. went up and saw all of the girls they were like so pretty. yupp. anyway went church, i sat there in the corner cos they were like serving and all. and i'm not a server so just sat there to rest my legs too. cos it was in pain. yupp. anyway had praise and worship after tt me valentia constance went down to buy food. yupp. so then we brought the food up and ate outside and i went to call mabel. yupp. we went in. sat for awhile and all. yupp. then me and valentia went off to meet darren and his friends. it was damn awkward. seriously weird. yupp had fun. felt like a gooseberry and all. made new friends. yupp. we went to drink after dinner. yupp. anyway tt was the day, went home with amelia. and i love valentia still!

anyway after tt rite, it sucked a whole lot. yupp. my phone went fucking crazy. so i cldnt call chloe. and i'm like damn guilty man. oh man. this all sucked. yupp. later came home checked the calls. she called me i guess lots of time. and i didnt dare to call back and the feeling sucked. yupp. anyway came home, i misunderstooded my best friend. oh man. i felt damn bad. maybe i was a little tipsy and alot tired. tt led me to saying those stuff. anyway i shldnt have called her. oh man. fucking moody now!!! how man! pray tt everything turns out for the better. amen!

KEZIA'S OFF!

UP UP & AWAY~

it's always tiring!

2006-11-30T20:19:00.000+08:00

today was a tiring day. maybe everyday is. cos i'm weak. hahas. okay. i guess not. yupp. today shi en came to my hse to pass me my shirt and i lent her my sweater. yupp. later i brought her to the salon.yupp. she thinned her hair. and at tt time it was raining. later we bought an umbrella. it was stupid cos later it stopped raining. so later we headed to hougang. and i went bras basah to meet chloe. yupp. anyway, i was with her doing nth. cos she was working and it was bcos of me. she sold 2 and half books. hahas. anyway, we had a break and we met kc and his friend. yupp. his friend was like really cool and she has a loud personality. yupp. anyway. kc had a gig tonight but both of us cldnt go. haas. chloe got to go gyming. hahas.i had to come home to rest. yupp. so then yupp. err today's also both my best friend's bf's birthdays. so

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARREN! [Valentia's Bf]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAN! [Vanessa's Bf]

you see, i'm like all by myself. )): lonely girl wandering in some dark streets. sadly by herself with no one. sadness is overwhelming again. anyway dun say you can be with me, after time passes everything goes can. yupp.

it's all true, time really is the key point of relationships. the feelings ppl have for someone will fade eventually if they arent true and serious. yupp. tt's all.

KEZIA'S OFF!

UP UP & AWAY~

this font isnt bad noe. (:

taken from amanda|i'm bored!

2006-11-29T20:52:00.000+08:00

1. WHERE DO YOU LIVE?
Yio Chu KangSengkang
2. LATEST ADDICTION?
Ice-cream frm ice-cream carts! APPLES!
3. SONG THAT YOU R LISTENING RIGHT NOW?
What Hurts the MostRascal Flatts
4. WHAT ARE YOU DOING RIGHT NOW?
Lots of stuff like listening and doin' this 'quiz'
5. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU WENT OUT WITH?
Valentia! i love her!
6. IF U WERE AN ANIMAL, WHAT WOULD YOU BE?
Koala bear! i'll be a vegetarian!
7. WHAT WOULD YOU LIKE TO BECOME IN FUTURE?
Businesswomansomeone who is able to work in branded boutiques!
8. WHATS YOUR RING TONE?
Is vibration called a ring tone?
9. WHAT DO YOU HATE MOST CURRENTLY?
PinkFood
10. WHAT ARE U WEARING RIGHT NOW?
Sea sports club shirt and black fbt.
11. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?
Like Duh! hahas.
12. WHAT WAS THE BEST PRESENT EVER?
A hand-made windmill and a self painted wooden 'K' made by Vanessa though it's simple but i think it's the best!
13. CAN U SKATE?
Yupp. In-line skate,DUH! skateboarding, somewhat. heh.
14. WHAT ARE YOUR PLANS?
Finish studying and start earning endless salaries? hehe.
15. FAVOURITE ATTIRE?
All black suit. i'm not into goth k!
16. DO YOU LIKE SCHOOL?
I guess so. the school helped me in making my friends i noe now.
17. HOW MANY EX'S DO YOU HAVE?
The serious ones only 1. hahas.
18. WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD?
Overwhelming sadness tt leads to suicide. tt feeling suck!
19. WORST THING THAT CAN HAPPEN IN A REALATIONSHIP?
A silent break! it's stupid cos they shld just say straight in the face! i hate ppl who beat arnd the bush or dont even beat? hahas.
20. WHAT'S THE FIRST THING YOU DO WHEN YOU WAKE UP?
Check the time and who's behind the beep or vibration.
21. POCKET MONEY PER MONTH?
It seriously depends.
22. LAST NEW FRIENDS YOU'VE MADE?
All the non-odac ppl who went belumut!
23. WHAT PLANS DO YOU HAVE TOMORROW?
Going out with shi en to cut hairmeet vanmeet chloe for workeat dinner with candice(not quite sure though)
24. LAST PERSON WHO ADDED YOU ON MESSENGER?
someone tt i dun noe. i'm nice so i accepted! :D
25. LAST SPORT YOU DID?
Abs exercises are called sport in my dictionary ((:
26. HOW MANY SIBLINGS DO YOU HAVE?
Yupp. A 18-yr-old sis.
27. LAST PERSON WHO WROTE YOU A TESTIMONIAL?
GeraldineNCDCC
28. PERSON YOUR CHATTING WITH?
STEFANIEmy love!
29. BLACK OR WHITE?
Duh! Black!
30. JEANS, SKIRTS, PANTS?
Jeans and my black pants!
31. SUBJECT YOU HATE MOST?
Chinese!
32. SUBJECT YOU LIKE MOST?
Mathematics.
33. DO YOU HAVE A BLOG?
Yupp.
34. IF YOU DO, WHY DO YOU HAVE IT?
To get in touch with my inner feelings. hahas. lameness.
35. WHAT ARE YOU DOING CURRENTLY?
doing this quiz.
36. WHO SENT YOU LAST SMS?
Shi en.
37. LAST SMS YOU SENT TO?
Chloe.
38. THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
Chloe. for her to scold me for nth. hahas.
39. WHAT WOULD YOU DO AFTER ANSWERING?
Hello?! hahas.

all the answers are like answered without thinking. it maybe retarded and thanks amanda!

it's freaking me out!

2006-11-29T20:27:00.000+08:00

i went to meet chloe and kelly after going van's hse. yupp. we're like damn late. hahas. we kept rushing and all. it's damn funny. we've been rushing these few days during the camp too. yupp. so i went to wheelock to meet them. yupp. so then i sat there cos my leg hurts. seriously. yupp. so then i went back to the office with chloe. yupp. then i waited for her for quite a while. then we headed to citylink. and later kelly called back to say she had to rush back. so we ran back to the office and i waited down there for 45 mins. yupp. later we went marina sq to eat yoshinoya. yupp. we sat on stairs. yupp. later we went mango and zara to waste time. yupp. oh ya. while rushing valentia msged me and said on sat dare at this superstar theme. and it so freaked me out. i was like 'WHAT?! HOW?! OH MAN?!' i was like so freaked out. then she told me she bought her dress already. yupp. so then while waiting for chloe i called van for help. actual fact call her brother. yupp. anyway the next day, i was supposed to go out with van but i cldnt cos valentia cldnt so i apologised and all. yupp. she was angry i thought. yupp. so then later i msged her said sorry again. yupp. then she said it's all cool. yupp. anyway, i went raffles place to meet chloe for a while. seriously a while. yupp. got asked for a job at the place. yupp. i hugged kelly and chloe and i left for bugis. i was late though. yupp. i met valentia. hahas. i had so much fun with her. like super fun. yupp. first we went to bugis to find shoes. and we got it bcos for ME. hahas. and later we went town area to get darren's pressie. so she bought a notebook for me. the words on it are so sweet. yupp. later she felt tt it's not enough. so we went walking round to find other stuff. she cldnt think so i thought of a card. so we bought cards frm art friend and i bought an envelope frm book smth. yupp. anyway we sat at 3rd floor to write the card. hahas. i wrote stupid stuff. and valentia wrote a happy birthday. hahas. she was lazy to write other stuff. hahas. we were rushing for time and all. hahas. but in the end we were still late. hahahs.

anyway i was so happy tt i met both

CHLOE & VALENTIA on the SAME day! i miss them so much.

i miss them now!!! hahas. i'll see chloe tmr!!! hahas.((:

KEZIA'S OFF!

UP UP & AWAY~

mountain!

2006-11-27T18:05:00.000+08:00

I'M BACK!!!

not in a good mood though.

fucking tired now. damn moody. dun noe why. the whole trip was damn fun. made new friends and all. and van made me more retarded on the bus. we're best friends noe. we fell, we slide, we got leech bite. hahas. i love eileen too. she's damn fun to be with. my tent mates were funny. and me & van sang ourselves to sleep. hahas. yupp. tt's all. i'll write others tmr when i come back from meeting ppl. yupp. so then i'm going to call ppl who called me when i was away like shah, firdaus, chloe, valentia yupp.

so then err i dun noe how to tell my sis abt her dress cos i dun quite like it. or maybe it isnt my taste and all. yupp. just pray i guess. amen. though. yupp. tired man. and i miss lots of ppl right now.

but

I MISS CHLOE & VALENTIA ALOT MAN!

KEZIA'S OFF !

UP UP & AWAY~

damn jealous candice!

2006-11-24T18:57:00.000+08:00

wah. candice...jealous man. you and malcolm. both of you are like super loving can. i'm like super envious. and i'm like some stupid loner in the corner. i'm all so lonely!!! it's damn sad man. i guess i'll be a spinster. hahas. damn retarded!!! hahas. candice's relationship with malcolm is damn stable. i wish i had some guy tt i could be with like them. so loving and lasting. but it somehow will never happen. hahas.

CANDICE I'M LIKE DAMN JEALOUS NOW!
ABT YOUR TAN & YOUR MALCOLM TAN! :P

ANYWAY I LOVE YOU CANDICE!!!

KEZIA'S OFF!

UP UP & AWAY~

super tiring!!!

2006-11-24T17:57:00.000+08:00

wah fucking tiring!!!

DAY 1, 22nd Nov. 2006

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WENHUI!!! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! I STILL OWE YOU A PRESSIE! PASS TO YOU SOON K!

went to meet zhao rong, melvin, joanna, sam, man-jade at like afternoon. then we waiting for an. yupp. then we went to meet van with our barang-barangs. then we head down to ang mo kio to get some more food. after everything we finally went to pasir ris chalet. and at time it was raining already. when we reach, it was even heavier! yupp. so we took a cab. yupp. all of us, like7 of us, squeezed in the cab. it was damn funny. hahas. then when we reach, we waited for mr nic to come. then when we went in, we got ready the stuff and all i guess. dun quite rmb also. then me and van went to ride bike. yupp. it was damn funny. we kept losing our balance. then we went to check out the red house in the daylight. yupp. then we went round pasir ris. then came back. cant rmb wat we did. i just rmbered we bbq-ed for like 1 hr i think and all, then i slacked. went to eat prawns. and listened to my mp3. i was sitting there alone. later man and van came over and sat with me. hahas. he pitied me. van wanted to accompany me. i cried stupidly while listening to mp3. hahas. it was all stupid. i was damn sad at tt point. yupp. then man and van was damn shocked cos i was always happy and all. yupp. then auntie came. then van's parents came. the tension was high. yupp. got lots of staring. i didnt bothered lo. then later lots of ppl sat with me and man. then i went in to watch soccer. hahas. yupp. then later had the cake. it was ice-cream! then cut cake and all. then i continued eating prawns. later went in the room. saw aaron damn red. hahs. it was a softer side of him. yupp. then he was feeling hot and cold. yupp. then jun jie opened the beer, then i had to drink rite, hahas. then i drank lots lots of gulp. hahas. i kept holding on to it. yupp. then later he finished tt can. then he opened another one which was aaron's one. then i drank again. hahas. yupp. then later when i was waiting for my prawns. i felt hot and i had headache. hahs.then jun jie fanned me then he left. so i ask man to get me a paper plate. then i fanned myself. later they went red house. didnt feel like going in, my head was in pain. and on the way there, an was damn funny. hahas. he kept asking am i okay and all. cos i wasnt looking right and all. yupp. then came back. man and an, lie on the bed dozing off. i was outside looking at the stars. it was damn nice. yupp. then zhao rong started bbq-ing again at 4. hahas. yupp. they ate and all. i didnt. yupp. so then i played cards till i was damn bored. felt like sleepin and all.but i couldnt, but at tt time it was already 5plus.so we went to see the sun rise cos i wanted to. so jun jie, van, an and me went to see it. it was beautiful and all. came back, i threw myself in bed. then i was sleeping with van, sam. then later zr damn drunk came in and made so much noise! then everyone woke up except man. he was super. then zr kept disturbing sam then sam kept moving, vibrating the whole bed. then van went down to sleep then i slept next to sam. then junjie slept next to sam zr. aaron and melvin went to buy food. yupp. i slept till they came back. yupp. went home at 9 plus. couldnt take it and the room is too small for me to sleep. hahas. yupp. end of the chalet. had a great time.

2nd DAY! 23rd Nov 2006

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZHAO RONG!

came back at around 2 plus. went to bryson's house to sleep cos i didnt have the key to go home. then later stef came to my house. i was damn shocked though. later bryson came. we watched tv the whole time .yupp. later then went off and all. so i started packing my bag for belumut and all. later at 10, i watch prison break. it's like damn nice. hahas. van started to watch also. she called me to ask abt the show cos luke choo asked her to watched too. hahas. yupp. so then she called to asked abt the pack list and all. so then i was damn sleepy. slept at 11.42 . i'll put in the pictures when i'm more awake.

24th Nov. 2006, Friday!

when i was woken up by naqib's 'morning call', i saw loads of missed call.i only saw chloe called and all. i think she got some stuff to tell me. yupp. woken up by my dad again. yupp. at 8.33am. couldnt wake up noe. but i got to. had to be in school at 9 am. yupp. came to school check logistics and all. yupp. i was yawning the whole day man. yupp. today we had punishment but bcos we didnt have lunch i guess they let us off. thank god. yupp. then later went koufu with farid and all. then man called van. then i asked him can help van and me to get ponchos then he said he's using an umbrella. tt's so retarded!!! hahas. it was funny. yupp. tmr going to belumut already. i still dun have tt mountain climbing mindset. later i gotta msg valentia abt church stuff! (: i miss her!!!

wah. i wrote so much!!! hahas. god was here typing. ahahs. i couldnt have typed it.

i'm cried when i listened the song i'm listening now. hahas. it's retarded!

KEZIA'S OFF!

UP UP & AWAY~

Tiring~

2006-11-21T19:20:00.000+08:00

hahas today was like a super tiring day. maybe cos holidays make me tired. hahas. or maybe i'm just damn lazy and all. yupp. this morning, i made like jelly. and i got it all wrong at the last part of pouring water into the mixture of the powder and hot water bcos i was fucking blur. i was like thinking of smth else i guess. it spoiled my poor jelly. it was meant to be eaten when i'm sad. in the end it spoiled the whole shit thing. yupp. so i slept after tt i was damn tired. yupp. then after i woke up i got ready for school. yupp. cos we had an ODAC Exco Meeting and all. so i walked to school rite, it was fucking hot noe. aaah. but i didnt perspire. it's all god's work. hahas. yupp. so then when i reached, many ppl were walking from the lrt station to the school. then we went up to the odac room and all. i was like damn moody. didnt noe why. maybe i do and all. anyway forget it. when we were in the classroom cos we had limited time. i ran with roy. hahas. i kept screaming wait for me royston!!! hahas. then me roy pauline luke choo were in the same grp. then roy kept making me and pauline laugh k. it's damn retarded. then luke choo's hand was like damn long can. yupp. so then later we had to plan the programmes for next yr. so split up again. my grp planned for sec1s. yupp. then van started her retardedness and all. hahas. and later i called chloe cos she called me and all. then went home with vanessa. she's like damn lame.she cant walk straight hahas. okay we came home and ate dinner. she waited for man-jed to fetch her home. awwwwww. so sweet. wish i had a guy like tt too. ((: yupp. so anyway came home and watched the tyra banks show. it's damn nice. hahas. it's abt online sex predators. it's damn sick. yupp. anyway, thank god s'pore it's quite safe and all. yupp. so i'm less tired. and i've not been drinking coffee for days already. and yupp. tmr going zr's chalet. yupp. didnt ask my mum yet but i'm so going. cos it's near beach and we're having BBQ!!! hahas. fun-ness. tmr going amk with zr and van first yupp. hahas coolness!!! bye all!!! hahas

BRYSON LOOK AT THIS!!!

THURSDAY !!! NICE CLOTHES! HAHAS! AND I CANT BELIEVE I'M CLOSE TO YOU!!! COS YOU'RE SEC1!!! HAHAS!

KEZIA'S OFF!

UP UP & AWAY~

today was awkward though.

2006-11-20T21:34:00.000+08:00

today, i was like damn tired. i was woken up by vanessa. she needed to know stuff abt belumut. like she need to confirm with me and all. yupp. and today i was like damn lazy the whole day. one day of work made me so tired. it's so stupid!!! hahas. yupp. but when bryson like 'msn' me said all his plans messed up. then he went to play warcraft. so i told him call me cos i went off and all. then he called told me saddening stuff. then i felt sad for him. then i went down to his house to accompany him. awww. i'm so sweet! hahas. i bought him 2 small cakes and i had candles and all. hahas. hope that he's happier lo. slept at his house cos it was raining and all. and the guest bed was so comfortable!!! hahas. and you noe what i gave him the pressie without the apple!!! uh! he made me bleed so much blood for nth!!! irritating! BRYSON YOU SHLD FEEL GUILTY! hahas. and later we went to atar to eat prata. but we thought stef could come down to meet us and eat with us and all. but in the end both of us ate ourselves. sadly. but it was damn fun eating with him though. he got so fed up by the prata. hahas. it was so hard to tear into pieces. hahas. it's retarded! haas. we talked alot abt everything lo. he's a nice kid, teenager. yupp. then i was like bringing a little kid out noe cos he kept playing the umbrella. hahas. yupp. enjoyed my whole day lo. yupp. his house is damn nice can!!! hahas. yupp. hope he's not sad or depressed anymore. yupp.

BRYSON STOP BEING EMO ANYMORE!!! and HAPPY BIRTHDAY! & also i had fun with you today! ((:

KEZIA'S OFF!

UP UP & AWAY~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRYSON!

2006-11-20T10:25:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRYSON~

Bryson, you're one super high kid. hahas. keep wishing yourself happy birthday. and you spam ant's and mine tagboard. hahas. trying to wish yourself happy birthday. i spammed yours and ant's one. hahas. yupp. and sorry abt not msgin you at 12. i was already asleep. sorry man. i was tired. and bcos of you i bled. hahas. cos i was peeling some stuff. then i got a cut. yupp. but it's not pain just lost lots lots of blood. hahas. yupp. you better call or msg me later k! i got to pass you your pressie or you'll nag!!! hahas. love you! have a blessed birthday with your bros!(:

yupp. last night i went running and i climbed up the stairs like twice and all. i was fucking stressed. i dun noe what to do. i cant cut myself or anything. so i did healthy stuff. yupp. ytd was a happy day till i came home. yupp. came home didnt eat anything. i just blogged and tagged ppl. yupp. and then felt uncomfortable went out to exercise cos i was a little depressed. like will you be happy if your sister doesnt like herself bcos of you. like fucking sad. and it results to not like me. yupp. then i was trying to make bryson's pressie to waste time. yupp. he's one hyper kid. yupp. so in the morning had like msgs and all. and van woke me up and all. yupp. now i'm damn tired. calling stef or chloe see whether they can go out. yupp. cos i'll miss stef! yupp. i'm damn stoned now. cant think already. yupp. anyway call me if you wan to go out! (((:

KEZIA'S OFF!

UP UP & AWAY~

continue

2006-11-19T20:33:00.000+08:00

went church with chloe, salome, daniel and other ppl. yupp. it's fun though. i sat in between chloe and daniel. hahas. daniel is damn lame and chloe kept making me laugh. yupp. the whole service was fun. the sermon was phrased funly too. yup. nice. so we went to grab a bite then left for her hse. rested at her hse. we lazed around. drank water, 2 cups too!!! then i felt damn bad so i went to do push ups. when i was doing sit ups, holly called then she was like WAT?! hahs. why is she doing sit ups for? i was like holly stop laughin! hahas. yupp. so then her mum fetched me back. yupp. then i came home and check the com like now. oh ya. and the bastard started to msg me again. haas. i dun noe what for but he's nice. yupp.

* BOOOOOO~~

FUCKERS!!! hahas.

KEZIA'S OFF !

UP UP & AWAY~

Two late posts i guess.

2006-11-19T11:51:00.000+08:00

Friday, 17th November 2006

On friday was like a busy day i guess. we had the preparations for the odac booth. early in the morning already had punishment can. we didnt noe where to assemble and all. so we waited at the booth and all. and we had like only 1 and half hr to settle everything. yupp. then becos pauline had like other stuff to settle so i was in charge of the performance in the hall. then the canteen was also mine. but the displaying everything was all done. so it lightened some of my responsibilty. yupp. and we over-shot of cos. then we had lunch together and all. yupp. then i rushed off. thinking that van is coming over .but she thinks it too rush so cannot make it. yupp. so i called chloe. and i went over to her hse. thinking she'll be working but in the end we stayed at hse to watch tv. but i slept. hahas. yupp. later we went down to gardens bcos she was going to meet kenneth leslie and zach i guess. yupp. so we played at the park. yupp. it's the first few pictures uploaded. we were swinging. hahas. fun-ness. yupp. so then bcos we were still early and i was so stressed and hot. we went to fairprice to shop for groceries. hahas. i bought 3 mangoes ( i trust chloe to choose the mangoes) , 2 jelly powder to make and 1 packet of fruit juice. yupp. and later i bought soya bean. haas. and we saw danielle. hahas. kinda miss her though. yupp. and later we walked to the bus-stop to wait for their arrival and for me leave cos i wan to catch the live broadcast of ATP Shanghai. yupp. hahas. very nice k. yupp. so then i slept unknowingly. but at 10 plus the guy from the restuarant? called me. yupp. said if i cld start on sat. then i said yupp. so ya. i slept.

Saturday, 18th November 2006
oh fuck. ytd was like fucking busy can. and tiring. but thank god i made it through the whole day. yupp. i had open hse in the morning till afternoon. we had to perform like twice. yupp. it was quite retarded. but it was fun though. i was with eileen at backstage. with the ncc boys. hahas. they're like so cute and small. hahas. yupp. and the no-bomb guy is damn funny. hahas. yupp. so then we went down for lunch and everything. yupp. so ODAC was the most high one. we did the hungry cheer and sat in a circle to eat. yupp. it's damn fun. yupp. we drank together too. hahas. yupp. then i did advertising with luke choo. yupp. we gave out brochures and all. later i went to the DnT room to check out the kitten. and fahmi knew i was scared of the kitten and he still brought it near me!!! aaah. then i screamed can! yupp. later i went down again .cos it was near 1.15. then i went off with denise to my hse. and i bathe and changed. then we got out to bugis to meet jav, gong da,lenard, haomun and lupeng. yupp. went there just to get black pants and send denise there of cos. yupp. then i went back to cp to eat dinner with my grp members. yupp. we ate swensens!!! hahas. fun-ness. they're like so cool! omg. we ate pasta and baked rice and REGULAR EARTHQUAKE!!! aahhh. it had smoke!!! hahaas. fun. then i left off for work. yupp. i took cab down. and was like so awkward. cos i was the youngest. and the ppl there are like very nice. yupp. the place was very relaxing. yupp. then i stood there for like 5 hours! hahas. and thank god for a smooth first day. yupp. then i went home i just dropped dead i guess. yupp. i was damn flat!!!aahh!!! hahas. and i cant believe i didnt meet chloe ytd!!! oh how much i missed her!!! and it's been a week already abt smth else. )):

Sunday, 19th November 2006
i'm going 3rd with chloe today. yupp. i'll call her after i sleep! hahas. ((:

KEZIA'S OFF !

UP UP & AWAY!

2006-11-19T11:34:00.000+08:00

Melody & me!
Kaven & Blur Darrick. hahas.
Luke Choo's bullying little ppl!

NPCC! hahas! how can fir smile?!
I LOVE ODAC!

love all of them!!! <3 ODAC BOOTH! it's the nicest!

2006-11-19T11:09:00.000+08:00

i'm like so retarded!!! aaahh!

weeee.. chloe looks long!

i still have lots more so go to my msn space to check it out

http://keziamemories.spaces.live.com/

todaywasokay.

2006-11-16T16:02:00.000+08:00

hahas. got back report book already. i got into 3E4. like got alot of ppl inside man.like ;luke choo,jessica,suzhen,eileen,melody,kairen,joy,wilson and many more lo. yupp. but quite saddening too can. candice,shi en,xin yi,grace,vanessa,joanna. not in the same class as me. wah. can cry. but i cried.anyway. today i'm like damn forgetful. yupp. i forgot to bring my passport and alot of forms. yupp. so farid ride me back home for me to get my passport then we went back to school. yupp. so then while waiting for the time to pass. i talked to javier, shi en and hao mun. hahas. me and javier talk abt almost everything. but he was the one who was talking to most lo. yupp. then hao mun was like talking but nobody bothered abt him. cos me and javier keep talking then hao mun talked out of point tat were all abt him. then shi en was like blur there. then shi en join me and jav's conver. yupp. had fun . yupp. so then went for the belumut briefing rite, damn shocked can. everything we have to ownself plan. the food and logistics. and i was like damn forgetful. i forgotten abt the bags. aaahhh. i think is all my fault can. i was like damn scared. i was somewat shivering cos had time limit and everything. yupp. i dun noe if the belumut trip would be fun. i pray so. yupp. got to pray before going. yupp. so then later me and van went to eat lunch. then sol kept looking our side. then i was like i look at him then he looked away. yupp. hahas. lame-ness. after eating we went to get ice-cream. hahas. it's a PENCIL! ooooooooh. nice. hahas. then van was like so stupid. made me walk the muddy field can. then we were like stuck in the middle then we cldnt continue so then we just slowly walked out of it. hahas. yupp. then she came my hse. then she wanted to sleep. cos she always will want to sleep when she come. yupp. then she left to meet man-jed? yupp. hahas. then i used the com then chloe called. hahas. to report and all. and tell me abt some stuff. hahas. and she was bored too. cos she was on the way to meet kenneth and leslie. i so dun noe why she wan to go when they're both studying for 'o' s. yupp. hahas. yupp. so i guess i'll be meeting her and kelly tmr. when they're like working. i'll be with them and all. i so dun noe what to wear. hahas. no idea. cannot think. seriously nth's on my mind now. maybe rest and coffee. yupp. so then we have holiday hw. sians. lame-ness. got to get my books soon. yupp. ((:

i'll miss my old classmates man. i love you guys k. the close ones like candice, ShiEn, XinYi, grace and the grp of guys that we're always with. yupp. i got to start anew too. yupp. Candice: we'll always be close k! ((: love you !

KEZIA'S OFF!

UP UP & AWAY~

taken from EILEEN!

2006-11-16T15:09:00.000+08:00

1. Hows your heart feeling lately?

i guess it feels tired of pumping blood round the body?

2. When was the last time you went out?

just? i went to school and lunch with van.

3. What was the latest movie you saw?

Step up. not bad i guess.

4. Where was the last place you went?

The toilet to wash up.

5. Miss someone?

yupp. but i doubt the 'someone' misses me.

6. What made you smile today?

Vanessa's retarded-ness!!!

7. Last time you fell in love?

I still dun quite noe wat's the true meaning of love. ):

8. When was the last time you had been dating?

What is called a date?

9. Ever love someone so deep?

i guess so. if i noe what is love.

10. What is your status now?

martial status or mood now? err. single. moody?

11. Did you dream last night?

i forgot if i did. (:

12. What did you do this morning at 7?

i just woke up. i was just lazing in bed.

13. What did you do this morning at 10?

Riding on farid's bike home.

14. What is the country you will want to visit?

Africa?

15. How many piercings do you have?

Only 3. have an urge to pierce 2 more. got to be odd.

16. Do you have a tattoo?

Nope. not planning to though, but have the urge too. but i'm afraid that i'll regret.

17. What is the last thing you ate?

Kinda Bueno

18. Who is(are) your best friends from the opposite sex?

Luke Choo i guess.

19. Do you have a nick name?

i guess so. it's zia?

20. Things you need to do everyday.

brush my teeth, talk to chloe, sleep, drink coffee, smile, hang out with ppl.

21. Are you a type of person who get hurt easily?

i guess so. i am. (:

22. The last thing you said to one of your friends?

Bye! hahas.

23. The last person who called you?

Chloe <3

24. The last person who sent you a message?

Luke Choo.

25. The last person you chat with?

On the phone, Chloe. Real life, my Dad. On MSN, Naqib.

26. What cant you live without?

Chloe! hahas. and my girlfriends. (((:

i'm cool now as in good.

2006-11-15T10:24:00.000+08:00

yupp. i'm going to start reading the bible more often. i guess it'll help in every aspects of my life. as i become older as in cos next yr. i guess it'll be a stressing yr. i'll need the lord so much more than usual. yupp. i'll reading it before i'm going out. yupp. i guess i'll bring it out too. hahas. yupp. tonight i'll be prata-ing with STEFANIE;my love and yumin;yumineh. hahas love both of them like alot!

if you think you're hopeless. you're not k. the lord has plans for you. good ones too. so dun give up on yourself so easily! ((:

Kezia'S OFF!

UP UP & AWAY~

some songs lyrics

2006-11-14T15:12:00.000+08:00

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you <2x>

Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do

-Rascal Flatts; What hurts the most

things happens

2006-11-14T15:08:00.000+08:00

dumb stuff happens. expect stuff like tt everyday.

THINGS TO GET ME!

2006-11-13T17:29:00.000+08:00

hehe. these are some stuff you may want to give me, it's not according to my likings k. it just came out of my brain! hahas.

THE STUFF ARE:

Flowers if you must [only sunflowers and lilies. i somewat hate roses]
NOTEBOOK! [for my journal writing]
Photo album [unless the outside is decorated by you]
Blouses [size 8 or 6]
KINDER BUENO? [lots and lots of them. i love it!]
KINDER SURPRISE[oooh. i love excitement!]
A card [made by you yourself but an envelope from nice paper shops like the one next to art friend in taka/citylink]
Home-made cupcakes/muffins/cookies [must be made yourself]
Evian special edition water bottle! [if you noe wat's tt]
COFFEE!
An organised outing with close friends![awww. it'll be so sweet!]
Memories! [pictures/drawings/photos]
WARMTH/LOVE from close friends [ i miss the feeling of warmth and love. ))': ]

hahas. thanks. ((: . if you can think of others it may be on the 'must not get' list. haha. only van and chloe can think of those tt arent of the list but i'll like it. hahas. thanks. hahaas. i'm just saying wat i may like. hehe. you no need to get me anything. i just want to see you ppl! ((:

we won!

2006-11-13T15:32:00.001+08:00

wah, fucking ass. i wrote half way then gone. sucks man. okay. let me start a fresh. yupp. today went school late. didnt have a good morning though. yupp. today had the project runway thingy. then lois was like so nervous. so i was nervous when she got out. i was tired though. yupp. when she got out. nervous man. she turned wrongly. my heart almost dropped. yupp. then it was the results announcement and the prize. then the prizes were swensen's vouchers!!! aaaaahhhhhh. yay! yupp. then the announcement me and eileen was like damn nervous can. the consolation prizes past then we were like how man. then later 3rd prize wasnt one of us. then we were like 'oh fuck' then later 2nd prize was eileen's grp. we screamed. hahas. then the 1st prize was like my grp!!! hahas. hoho. hehe. yupp so then when lois was changing, i called manfred thought he'll awake and all. but i forgot he's a slacker and all. so then i woke him up. then i screamed. hahas. and told him my grp won. hahas. yupp. then somewat assembly. the care stuff. then me van and candice were like so funny can. we keep doing the sudden attack thingy. ahas. yupp. the stuff was like boring. after school, van went with aaron. hahas. funny. aaron was like funnily cute with the flat hair. hahas. yupp. so then syed accompany me to eat my lunch. then po yai came then he told me tt he'll be going to taiwan tmr. hahas. so i wont be seeing him and all. hahas. yupp. so then me and syed did stupid stuff. then we went home. i went home with denise. she's one retarded girl. but i was somewat high though. hahas. i was sliding on the road. hahas. it's fun k. yupp. she asked me if one day i wan to watch movie and i have no one to go with, call her. then i said it'll never happen and all. hahas. it's funny. hahs. she's one retarded girl. and chloe have not call to report wat she has eaten. hahas. yupp. i'm not eating dinner today. i'll sleep!! hahas. yupp. bye all. i'll tag you!!! and today was somewat a sad day!!! uh!!! no one bought me HOT COFFEE!!! i thought someone would.))): maybe it wasnt big enough! I'LL LOVE THE PERSON WHO BUYS ME HOT COFFEE TMR! I'LL LOVE YOU K! BUY ME COFFEE PLS! HOT COFFEE! I'LL LOVE YOU! yupp. hahas. fun-ness! get me k!

KEZIA'S OFF!

UP UP & AWAY~

why is chinese so hard?!

2006-11-12T19:29:00.000+08:00

damn fucked up now. i dl the new msn thingy rite? it's like in CHINESE!!! AHHHH!!!! fucking assholes. who even invent chinese. i want to cry reading them. help!!! chinese makes me sick!!! help me. SHI EN come to my hse to settle this pls!!! you're pro!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!! help!!! JESUS!!!!!!! HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DESPERATE NOW~

tiring man~~

2006-11-12T18:25:00.000+08:00

somewat 2nd post abt today. woke up like damn early can. like 9.04am. and slept like damn early too. like 4 plus. yupp. i was watching chloe sleeping. it's like a tv. haas. yupp. went 3rd service. before tt me and chloe ate lunch. it was stupid though. we regretted eating it. and later i went to buy mochaccino. hahas. i was asking the guy what was the difference between latte and mochaccino. and u noe wat's the diff. is tt latte is for weak coffee drinkers and mochaccino is heavier so i bought mochaccino small. regretted though. shld have bought medium like last night. )): yupp. then me and chloe went to virtualand and we wasted 6 dollars on nth. it's so stupid noe!!! uh! yupp. we thought we got it and all. yupp. tt place is addictive! but we were like talking if our boyfriends were so sweet to get us smth there. hahas. so fun. hahas. yupp. then we went to queue up and she wanted to eat sweets so we bought 3 dollars worth of gumballs. hahas. it's damn nice to eat noe. hahas. i ate 2 dollars worth of it. and we stand near her friend so we queued with her. yupp. then i handed in the cheque. hahas. i finally rmbered how to spell. okay. then i talked to lydia and lynn. told them i saw them ytd and all. hahas. lynn was explaining why she was like screaming and everything. hahas. very funny. yupp. so then me and chloe went down to find salome and daniel. hahas. yupp. cos salome called me. yupp. then i slapped daniel TWICE. hahas. he fell for the trick. then in the auditorium he was damn scared to sit near me. hahas. he's one evil OLD guy. seriously old. hahas. yupp. so then me and chloe sat together and daniel sat in front of me. and salome sat with andrea? i guess. yupp. after service i went chloe's hse. yupp. she got to change and go to work. she's quitting and all. yupp. so holly her grandma and her mom was home. haas. all women. hahas. holly was like damn lame can. she called me when she was drunk ytd night. hahas. tt's why she sounded weirdly retarded. hahas. she drank all the alcohol in the house. yupp. then chloe's mom fetched me home and fetched chloe to her workplace and all. and err. then i came home ate maggie. my mom cooked and all. yupp. it was so filling. didnt finish up the thing. yupp. so then i got to tag ppl. yupp. i'm tired and all. but the caffeine would help i guess. yupp. i'm addicted to coffee now. it's so cool but i'm afraid tt it'll stain my teeth. i'll love the person who buys me hot coffee tmr!!! i'll love you okay!!! buy me!!! yupp. ahhas. later there's wendy wu. holly and i are going to watch we were like talking abt it just now. hahas. yupp. i miss ppl now! )): my love i love you! i'll tag you now. and valentia!!! i love you, so just msg or call me when you need someone or smth k. see you soon! (:

KEZIA'S OFF !

UP UP & AWAY~

PICTURES AT!

2006-11-12T10:22:00.000+08:00

retardedness. these photos wasnt here noe. yupp. so more photos are at

http://keziamemories.spaces.live.com

make up of 2 days ~~

2006-11-12T09:49:00.000+08:00

yupp. hello! hahas. i'll write 2 posts in 1 post. hahas. never did tat before. yupp. okay.

10th November 2006, Friday

manfred came to my house and do nothing i guess. yupp. then he checked the timing and all, so then i went to get ready and all. yupp. then he was like rushing me indirectly. yupp. so then we took the bus then the train down to cineleisure. yupp. then he said the timing for the show was 1.50pm but it was like 1.05 like tt i think. yupp. so then we took 2 smth one i think yupp. so we watched step up and all. i guess it was nice and everything. yupp. so then later we walked around again. yupp. so then we left at like 4 plus cos he was going to meet his friend. so i was left there. then i walked around by myself for like 45 mins and all. then i called CHLOE. hahas. cos i rmbered she was working there. then i went coffee bean wheelock to find chloe and kelly!!! hahas. they were like rushing me can. they said they still had tickets to sell and everything. yupp. so i accompanied them to sell the tickets. later it rained and all. so kelly had only 1 ticket left. and yupp. so she went to cine to catch a bus to marine parade bcos she wasnt supposed to be in town area and all. so then later i went to find chloe again. and she was with her trainer. yupp. later we went to shaw to eat. yupp. i ate long john. so then as i was eating van called me said joanna would die in 2 years time. then i broke down and cry. then later van called me again and said it was a prank. was damn lame but gd enough nth is going to happen to her. yupp. so then later, spencer, chloe's friend, came to find us. yupp. then later we went mcdonalds then he ate. we watched him. yupp. later they saw their friends,gabriel & kc. yupp.then they talked and all. after the left, me and chloe left too. hahas. yupp. then we were like worried abt spencer getting his way around. yupp. so then later we went to meet her trainer to get to bugis there. yupp. then the trainer was selling the tickets cos he had the last few to sell. yupp. then we like helped him sell all the last few. yupp. then i saw mr chia. hahas. he was on the way to some meeting and i thought he was going bible study and all. ahhas. yupp. later we had down to the office. and i waited for chloe outside. so i took pictures. i'll put it up later. yupp. then we hurried down to vivo. bcos we were meeting chloe's friends, kenneth & leslie. yupp. we were like somewat 1 hr late. yupp. then we went to walk around. then these 2 guys were different from most guys. they do shopping noe. yupp. amazing. yupp. so then i walked with them for like an hr. and i was too tired. so i went home after getting some stuff. yupp. i went home and drop dead in my bed after i washed up and all. yupp. then manfred msged me and i replied stupid stuff. it's crazily stupid. yupp. tt was my day. (:

11th November 2006, Saturday/ 12th November 2006, Sunday

yupp. went out early in the morning before 8.30am. to meet the odac ppl.

yupp. then i woke van up cos i forgot abt the late thingy. yupp. then we took the train to dhoby and took the bus 36 to east coast. and we walked a long way there. yupp. then we played captain's ball and all. then CANDICE played nice songs on the guitar. it's damn nice and sweet and voice is damn nice!!! yupp. i love her!!! ((: yupp. later we went off and all. it started to rain and all. then we took the bus 16 back. yupp. then we ran across the road to get to the station. yupp. me and van was like damn lame. hahas. yupp. so then we went toilet and changed and all. then me luke choo van and syed went walking round ps. yupp. i was tired then. and the whole time i was trying to get chloe. so i called holly and all. yupp. then chloe finally callled me! haha. then i talked like super damn fast. hahas. yupp. so we decided to meet at atar and all. but i went hougang first to accompany van to meet a person. syed accompany me to the bus stop too. yupp. then i took 136 to atar. and saw chloe and the bus stop. yupp. so we decided to go far east when we were eating prata. yupp. then we made our way there. hahas. yupp. we were like so tired. then we were like so cold. so we drank hot stuff. she drank hot chocolate and i drank hot mocha. hahas. and i burnt my tongue. yupp. when i ordered then i talked to the person unknowingly. i asked him whether he was tired and all. it was damn lame. chloe and i kept laughing .and we walked damn slow. hahas. we took like 5 mins to get up the slope. hahas. then we went art friend. yupp. then i kept walking in circles. i was like so retarded ytd. omg. i cant believe man. then later we took the train down to dhoby to catch the train to serangoon. and we saw chloe's friend kenneth. kenneth. hahas. i like his name. and i embarrassed myself in front of him. i was like damn retarded. hahas. yupp. then we took like the bus from serangoon. but i walked so slow then kenneth was like why is she walking so slow thing. hahas. and chloe pulled me. yupp. so then we took the bus home. and we washed up and all. we ate spaghetti. hahas. it's high fibre. then van called then she thought it wasnt me. hahas. yupp. it was lame and all. then later cos chloe wanted to use the com. so i told her to wake me up at 1. but someone msged me so i woke up. yupp. then later manfred msged me. yupp. then i thought chloe woke up then i said u lied to me. then she went back to sleep. hahas. then i talked to manfred on the phone and all. and the whole time i was so retardedly embarrassing. now i forgot wat i said man. yupp. EMBARRASSMENT!!! hahas. yupp. then i slept at 4.30 around there. hahas. caffeine are strong! i feel like drinking it today. i shld try coffee bean's one today. and today i'm going 3rd service. i got to hand in the check and all. yupp. chloe is still asleep!!! hahas. bye all!!!

KEZIA'S OFF!

UP UP & AWAY~

though it was all gd but turned out bad )):

2006-11-09T16:18:00.000+08:00

okay today was alright and all. one thing tt i felt bad i guess cos i went the art thingy and left candice out and all. yupp. yupp recess naqib sat and talked to me and mr. chia was so against me the whole day. sorry candice, i still love you. and today my love didnt come. yu min too. yupp. i miss them! i wont be seeing them for days. and after school went out with van and syed. we ate lunch and went home cos i was tired and van meeting her friend. yupp. and bryson is damn dao. dun noe why man. yupp. i guess he's okay with me and all. pray so. yupp. so quarrelled with one of closest friend like just only. i dun noe wat fuck i did. i was like just joking. uh. fuck. i shld just noe tt he told me before that he was a sensitive person. i'm like so evil. not caring abt wat he shld feel. this all sucks. i dun noe how it started it just happened after i joked. irritating. quarrelling with him can always make me cry. it's crazy. it's saddening. i so dun noe wat to reply him. am i supposed to do anything?! i dun noe wat to noe. i dun noe wat to say in case i hurt ppl's feelings unknowingly. it's saddening man. going off. i miss my love. i love CANDICE. i shldnt have quarrelled with you. ='((.

kezia's off

up up and away~

today was depressing but tiring/fun

2006-11-08T22:46:00.000+08:00

hahas. now i'm listening the song bryson sent me. it's a BEAUTIFUL song as he said. hahas. thanks bryson. okay. today was depressing, my results tt i got back sucked like mad. it's shit. yupp. so depressed. during recess, bryson and anthony came and told me tt their friend is interested in me. hahas. it's weird though. but sec 1s are so cute. hahas. damn funny. okay. so after recess were chinese and history. i was impressed by history. section c rocked. haas. i got 16/20. hahas. fun-ness. yupp. so after school, went home myself. yupp. then i went out with chloe and holly. hahas. met holly and the yio chu kang station. she just ended her 'o's hahas. she's funny. hahas. she did her paper in 15 mins. it's damn funny. hahas. yupp. we took the train and talked abt everything from ppl dressings to lame retarded stuff. hahas. then we met chloe and dhoby ghaut mrt station. then we missed the train cos holly was slow. hahas. yupp. we went vivo to exchange stuff in forever 21. then we went topshop and chloe got a dress. hahas. it's damn funny. yupp. so then later we went to heeren to get my slippers. yupp. then later we went down to serangoon and ate prata at atar. yupp. then went to meet holly and her friends. yupp. and i went to a job interview. hahas. so sudden and all. pray tt i get the job though. hahas. yupp. so then went walking round gardens so then chloe went to find holly, leslie, kenneth all. then i walked all the way home cos i took the wrong bus. so i walked all the way home!!! AMAZING haha. hehe. and now i'm dying of lameness. bryson is suddenly talking abt lame shit. hahas. it's funny though. i'm going to tag you now, bryson. and today i saw my love. hahas. i love you , love!!! hahas. yumin i love you too. ((:

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wasnt too bad today

2006-11-07T14:58:00.000+08:00

today was so much better!!! yupp. cos i prayed for it.

THANKS TO WENHUI:

hahas. thanks. ytd was just one of the few bad days you get in a yr. yupp. no worry. i'm so much better today. i love every bit of you!!! (((:

loving you now~~

today i got back my results. it sucks like mad.serious.i dun noe why man. yupp. only english, science, lit. lit i failed by 4 marks.didnt quite care. too tired to care though.yupp.so then english and sci i passed. but i'm trying so hard to rmb how much i got for english.it's weird man. yupp.it's lame. so then today was a better day than ytd.and ytd i slept like SO EARLY. it's craziness.i cldnt wake up in the morning today.it's damn stupid. i shldnt have slept early noe. i shld have slept at 1 or 2. it was dumb to sleep at like 11. it's so stupid man. yupp. you noe rite, most ppl who are in a relationship are like having problems now. it's so weird. they're happening at the same time. yupp. and ytd night, i did smth so not me. it's damn weird but i did it. so ya. hahas. quite happy though. ((: . continue. so when i was checking the papers i kept singing songs. haas. i'm like a radio. shi en kept asking me to change song when i was singing the 'i love you' song. then i sang another song, then another. hahas. fun-ness. hahas.and today xin yi shi en was damn retarded. candice thinks so too. they're like damn funny. doing retarded stuff. hahas. and today during some break, luke choo and vanessa were playing some cover eyes shit game. it's damn lame. i thought the person who covered my eyes was van, but i was like wondering when did her hand grew so big. then i lean back then i felt the person was like wearing a skirt. but it was luke choo. it was damn lame and he almost made me fall. irritating but nice to be with guy. hahas. and today i talked to fahmi cos we sat quite near each other. like so long never talk to him already. like 1 month or 1 and half. around there. yupp. today was just a same boring/retarded day. and now i'm tired. seriously super tired.

TIRED TIRED TIRED!!!

today i didnt see my love again ))':

luke choo, the high expectation guy, dun be sad k. the other subs would pull your overall up! and i'm not lying abt my marks to you k. ((: cheer up! you were always the one there to cheer me up so i'm here too ((= bye luke choo! i'm so sweet hahas!

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not a good day though~

2006-11-06T16:37:00.000+08:00

today sucked like mad can. ahh. fuck. i just cut my finger. it sucks can. today, the whole day from 12 am. it so wasnt going my way. ya. i cut my wrist, as in not the pen-knife thingy. it's been a long time i used the pen-knife to cut my wrist. err it's like cut by some stuff. then at like 1 plus i guess. i talked to van cos i smth just happened to both of us. and i heard her voice and rmbered wat just happened, i broke down and cried like mad. yupp. went toilet clean up. then fell asleep unknowingly. yupp. woke up and cldnt find my comb. and i couldnt tie my hair. it sucks like mad. planning to cut my hair like soon! yupp. so then went to school with a damn fucked up & depressed mood. yupp. super depressed like depressed man. yupp. so did drama again. irritating!!! didnt quite participated in it. didnt sleep during drama. didnt had time. and went recess. did smth bad to syed and van. we 3 like are going back together. yupp. so me and candice sat somewhere and listened to music. yupp. so then music played went to quadrangle. damn disorganised!!! fucking irritated by the tchrs can. yupp. then went to do tile painting it was fun though but i slept when she gave instructions. then went off to guah lih's hse to somewat rest. cos i was bored. yupp. somewat slept there i guess. yupp. so later came home and all. today so wasnt my day. damn fucking pissed my everything tt happened today!!! arghh.CANDICE!!!! go into my blog acc. i'm damn fucked up now. serious. it's getting on my nerves!!! fuck this blog!!! ughh.

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the weekends

2006-11-05T21:40:00.000+08:00

hahas. on sat, when out with my mum on sat. and after my stuff and her shoes. we went off cos we both got smth on. yupp. so we went seperate ways. i went suntec to hand in the camp form. yupp. i wasnt planning to stay at all noe. then lydia dragged me in. i felt strange there. it was damn uncomfortable. i felt weird. yupp. so stayed till the praise & worship ended. so then i went to take a bus but i waited for 70 for like 1 and half hr and later i think i shld just take another bus tt i dun noe. at least it'll take me somewhere than staying at the same bus-stop. but i didnt noe i was so patient. hahas. yupp. so then err went back home and ate my dinner, changed and got out again. msged manfred and all. but someone was tired so then i went to meet CHLOE! we met at wisma and she was late. i waited for her and all. yupp. and we went shopping and everything. yupp. then we went vivo to have her dinner. hahas. and we did stupid stuff. hahas. went walking around vivo. and we stayed in forever 21 the longest cos the woman took like 30 mins to try on 6 dresses. tt's damn long. so i was somewat msging manfred the whole time. i find tt ytd i was waiting the whole day. yupp. then our another friend came to find us. hahas. it's damn lame and all. yupp. so we went home. hahas. we stayed over at my hse. hahas. chloe is lameness. we talked to out friends on the phone at the same time. but chloe talked damn loud. hahas. i talked till like 3 i guess. and chloe was looking at some stuff for like half and hour. it's madness. so then we slept at 3.30am. woke up at 9.45 i guess. then me chloe dressed up and all. and went for 2nd service. yupp. so then we were damn tired during the service. and we talked crap. hahas. we just said watever was in our mind cos we were like damn tired. okay. so it ended and all. then we went to her house. we watched tv and ate. and did our nails. hahas. and then i slept. but i was woken up by a msg. yupp. so i felt damn tired. yupp. and i was like wondering why was holly's tuition so damn long. it's damn tiring. yupp. so then my dad fetched chloe to her workplace and i went dinner and then i did stupid dumb stuff. hahas. bcos i was so bored. and now i am too!!!

BORED!!!!!!!!!

hahas. and stefanie's blog is so like mine. ahahs. tt's why we're in love with each other. i love her. she loves me. hahs.coolness. yu min i love you too k! hahas. ((:

candice i finally upload the pictures!!! hahas. ((: i love you candice! hehe.

fun-ness. i love doing boring stuff!!!

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depressing morning

2006-11-04T11:14:00.000+08:00

i woke up twice in the morning. one at 8 and one at 10. i was like so freaked out cos like i was suppose to wake manfred up. and i guess caused him to be late. but i think they were used to him being late i guess. XP hahas. yupp. and after eating cake for breakfast. had a msg from vanessa. she wanted to go out with me and my mum. yupp. then it's like. she was somewat damn fucked up. and so couldnt help her man. cos i dun quite noe the other side ppl. i just listened to her. the more i hear abt it. i felt damn sad. i pray that she'll better.

P.S. No matter what happens van, i'll always be here for you. seriously. and you know i will. like how you helped me the other time and like how i helped you when you broke down. and i love you babe. you noe i do. i can stay single just for you too. must be touched can. cheer up. i'll see you later! ((: . you noe wat, i feel tt sometimes you shld listen to me tt almost all guys are bastards if not they are horny bastards!!! yupp. dun say me back k. cos you noe i all along had this kind of thinking. since dun noe when. yupp. did i say i love you? hahas. i love you!

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taken from CANDICE!

2006-11-03T15:52:00.000+08:00

candice it's lame. i skipped the last part. but i'm bored. hahas.

Don't read the question(s) until you've named the 20 people.At the end of this, choose five people to do this.

1. Candice

2. Valentia

3. Vanessa

4. Manfred

5. Chloe

6. Luke Choo

7. Holly

8. David

9. Hui Yi

10. Jesus

11. Naqib

12. Firdaus

13. Shi En

14. Xin Yi

15. Kelly

16. Hao Mun

17. Melvin Ong

18. Stefanie

19. Yu min

20. Denise

How did you meet #14[Xin yi]?

like from the school.

What would you do if you didn't meet #1[CANDICE]?

i'll just die of boredom and depression without her.

What if #9[hui yi] and #20[denise] dated?

of cos not! they dun even talk to each other.

Would #6[luke choo] and #17[Melvin Ong] make a good couple?

that will be gayness. and none of them are gays i hope/think.

Describe #3[VANESSA].

She's lame, pretty, creative, rich. her actions are damn big. she wont get embarrassed eaily. she's also fair and did i said she's lame already?

Is #8[david] attractive?

yupp. he's one attractive guy. he's character draws ppl to him.

Describe #7[holly].

Holllly is one pretty babe. she's crazy at times, obsessed with herself, love having fun and she has lots of clothes. and i love her! ((:

Do you know any of #12[firdaus] family members?

err. like not quite but only one baby from his house. she's one cute baby.

What would you do if #18[Stefanie] confess to you that she likes you?

i'll be damn touched! cos she's a pretty babe that lots of guys like. and i may accept her. =D

What language does #15[Kelly] speak?

you seriously want to know? it's weird. but she's not. hahas.

Who is #9[hui yi] going out with?

no one yet. she's a good, hardworking girl.

How old is #16[hao mun]?

14 in may smth.

When is the last time you spoke to #13[shi en]?

it was just hours ago. when i said bye to her.

Who is #2[valentia] favourite band/singer?

i dun quite noe. but she likes a variety though.

Would you ever date #4[manfred]?

maybe i guess yes. but i like so noe him for like a super short time man. and if he's into long-term relationships, if not... [dun sad manfred, hahas. you shld be touched can. =P see ya!]

Would you ever date #1[Candice]?

yupp. if she's turn to a les and dumps malcolm. hahas. it means a no cos they'll never break up.

Is #15[kelly] single?

not sure but i guess so.

What's #10's[jesus] last name?

oooohhh. this is hard but you got to check the bible!

Would you ever be in a relationship with #11[Naqib]?

not quite there cos we'll always be good friends! ((:

School of #3[Vanessa]?

my school!

Where does #6[Luke Choo] live?

PASIR RIS! arent you touched luke choo tt i rmb where you stay.

What's your fave thing about #5[Chloe]?

i love everything abt chloe! i've known her since we were a small kid.

Have you seen #1[candice] naked before?

hahas. muahaha. it's a SECRET!

hahas. it's damn lame while doing this.

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damn boring day can!!!

2006-11-03T15:29:00.000+08:00

today's friday, it's said to me the shortest day of the week but it sucked like shit. beginning, ms yeo wanted to meet the odac ppl. so we went. she gave some consent form. yupp. and it's like damn weird can, she chose me in the 20+ ppl. as in like, it's weird. i shldnt be in there can. and she exaggerated that it's handpicked out by them. yupp. i shld feel honoured i guess. yupp. so luke choo wore pe shirt underneath AGAIN. and he watched 'the prestige' the other day. today's he's watching another show. yupp. so today lots of ppl didnt come. yupp. and my class did dumb and time-wasting stuff. we did drama!!! uh! it's l-a-m-e! it wastes my time can. i was like damn tired. before we played lame games. it's not tt i dun love acting, it's just tat i'm damn tired, super tired. yupp. so then recess i ate noe! amazing. yupp. and today's recess was a damn short one. yupp. after recess had to meet ms yeo and mr chia again. becos she wanted to tell us abt mt.k . it's like so long away. yupp. but when she was talking i was playing with luke choo. hahas. it's damn lame. i kept poking him. and his shoulders was damn broad can! then i was measuring mine and his. ms yeo looked at me and laugh. it was damn funny can. hahas. and luke choo was damn hurting. when we stood up, then i talked to him. then he said kezia i cant see you. irritating! he's just showing he was so much taller than me! =P. yupp. after recess did stupid drama stuff again. after school, i went to help out with ms yeo to pack. i wanted to go out with manfred but someone just woke up and he wanted to go bible study. so was damn rush. yupp. so then i help to do extras and later counted the badges and cert. of the nafa? yupp. it made me go crazy. ms yeo, pauline and eileen keep saying me can. i kept shouting cos i was so irritated with myself. then i recounted everything again. and i got it correct! and we left extra bronzes badge. then i walked home myself. and i called chloe. and wanted her to go out with me. but she's a busy woman. she had no time. she got to go work at 6. yupp. tt's my day. it's a boring one. so yupp.

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missed one day of post

2006-11-02T20:05:00.000+08:00

i so didnt write a post ytd. ytd was my sis b'day. yupp. she's eighteen now. yupp. so thursday went sentosa for sun-tanning. didnt get tanned at all. but i believed i did. yupp. so we tanned for a few hours. it miraculously was sunny noe. everyone said there wasnt sun at other places. yupp. when we left, it rained. yupp.me & candice were so figitive and everything. yupp. we got bored of just lying there so we went swimming. hahas. and i was so wet cos i didnt have a towel. so i dried off with my shorts. then i wore my skirt. yupp. so me & candice went vivo. walked the whole thing for like 2 hours. our legs hurt but we continue walking. cos it was retarded to sit there. hahas. we saw some stuff i could buy for my sister. yupp. so at 6 we went seperate ways. i had to meet manfred cos he was late! yupp. he was damn purpose can. he knew i was outside but he didnt walk over to find me cos i didnt noe where he was noe. so he made me walk over to him and made me leave candice. but candice left after we bought the ticket. yupp. so me and manfred went walking pointless. but later i decided to go to the supermarket. hahas. it was lame. the supermart was called naturally marketplace or smth like tt. it was damn lame. later i dun noe where we went then we went to the movies but it was damn early when we went in can. yupp. so we sat at the first role. yupp. had somewat difficulties but it was cool. i felt damn tired can. i tried sleeping but someone didnt allow me to. so had to watch the movie. after a while in the theatre i felt damn cold. cos my inside was wet and all. yupp. then i didnt wan to use the jacket cos i find wearing jacket looked gay. hahas. yupp. when we came out, i couldnt help it so i wore his jacket. it was damn long and gay can. i had short hand and body. yupp. so we walked out and it was still cold. it was a dumb idea to go out can. haas. so then we walked to the 'six' shop to check out the clips. and on the way there, saw stef they all. yupp. and hao mun dyed hair! hahas. yupp. so then we went out to the 'rooftop' and it was damn nice can. the scenary and all. and i was so amazed by the guy at the pull-up. i seriously thought it was real. yupp. so we walked awhile then we went to get my sis pressies. yupp. so after we went home. when we left i almost forgotten to take off his jacket.i appreciated him going out with me when he was like damn tired. but he always been so tired ever since i've known him.yupp.then denise and hao mun were waiting for me at cp. so i hurried there. and took cab home with denise. yupp. and i was damn tired! yupp. and today i went to east/west side with someone and i met valentia!! hahas. surprised when i saw her. yupp. she was going to darren's. we talked abt 'secret'.yupp. and then she left. yupp. later i did lame stuff. and later in the evening i went vivo and took pictures! yupp. tt's all. i'm tired! =/

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2006-10-31T13:31:00.000+08:00

hehe. today was sci & lit. i so think tt i flunk both but i pray damn hard that i'll pass like a B. yupp. i dun have too high standards noe. yupp. before we sat down luke choo asked me to smile. hahas. then i smiled. then he touched my cheek and 'ran' cos the paper was started. he was lame. hahas. so sci was quite hard and i got tired after doing like15 pages. yupp. then it was the break. me and candice went to our place. yupp. so then we did crappy talk but it was fun cos it was abt TMR! yupp. we didnt do a crap abt lit cos we didnt have the notes. yupp. then joanna and vanessa came, joanna wanted to check out my teeth. yupp. she didnt say anything tt's cool. yupp. then they went away. me and candice then went to the toilet yupp. so then i was looking at myself rite, i felt ugly and weird with braces. why?! arghh. nvm. dun care. if they like it or not so be it. i pls no one. yupp. but candice was nice she said it not bad la. hahas. then she helped me do smth. hahas. it's a secret! hahas. yupp. then when we came out, we freaked out cos there's no one at the ground level. so we ran up but we saw e4 ppl. so we werent freaked out. yupp. saw naqib as we past ppl. yupp. so saw him studying. it was kinda weird but he wants to pass so cant help it. yupp. so then we asked our classmates abt lotus bud thingy. but it didnt come out, i forgot though.yupp. then before the paper start again, luke choo touched my cheek and 'ran' cos he was late. hahas. yupp. the lit paper was a hard one. but i wrote watever came out of my mind. pray tt i'll pass and all. yupp. so after the paper we went to find ms parvin. and she selected our project to sell i guess. hahas. it's nice cos it was lois' idea. yupp. so after tt candice came to my hse to put a stuff and we watched 'making the band 3'. it's damn nice. hahas. danity kane has nice voices. yupp. i respect them. yupp. so later i watch this stupid show called smth teenage daughters. i kept laughing. i felt lame laughing to the tv. hahas. cos i seldom do that. yupp. Tmr's an exciting day, me & candice would be going sentosa for tanning. but we aint got any lotion so we'll buy it!!! haha. yupp. we have planned everything. pray that the weather will be all good. ((: AMEN!

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2nd post for the day~

2006-10-30T19:07:00.000+08:00

it weird man. shah, is funnily jealous tt i treat some guy better i guess. but i dun, cos it's like i'm always with shah in class and all. but ya. yupp. i'm sorry shah. yupp. * you still look okay with your old specs. yupp. it's nice just less striking.* yupp. so okay, i feel tt i dun feel closer to candice anymore. i dun noe why noe. but we're always together and stuff. but i still love her alot! yupp. i just pray that it's just cos we didnt see each other for 3 days. yupp. so today i quarrelled with some guy abt old stuff, i guess. halfway i forgot what happened. then he mailed me, it was touching though. he asked me to call him if i wanted to settle it but i felt damn cold and shivery when i read it, dun noe whether to call or not.i felt damn bad. but at the same time i wrote him a mail too k. i think mine is more touching hahas. yupp. so later he called me and apologised and i almost can cry tt kind of shit. but i didnt cos i'm STRONG.

yupp. i'm damn sorry, my friend. it's my fault. )): iloveyou though. ((:

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lame conver.

2006-10-30T13:59:00.000+08:00

hahas. me and luke choo are like talking both on friendster and on msn. tt is damn lame can. hahas. yupp. so then err yupp. so today i had history and math paper 1 rite. so for history, i was seriously praying noe. cos i forgot wat were the reasons why they did the home ownership thing. and it popped out after i prayed. yupp. half way when i was sleeping miss toh came to wake me up and told me to add stuff. yupp. but in the end i didnt add. i was damn lazy. so during the break, me & CANDICE went to the bench and she revised the mensuration shit and i tested her. then i woke manfred up too. he's a slacker!!! yupp. okay. so i kept singing the songs that were playing. then i started to freak out a little when candice asked me abt the venn diagrams for the subsets stuff. so i prayed again. saying the subsets questions wont be damn hard. then it was easy. yupp. i'll just prayed tt i'll get A.

okay. ya now i'm talking with luke choo. & it goes like:
marry the merry mary. says:
you now shy to smile?
Kezia. says:
yupp .
marry the merry mary. says:
ahaha
marry the merry mary. says:
ah yo
marry the merry mary. says:
than now also nv talk?
Kezia. says:
have k. to candice
marry the merry mary. says:
haha
marry the merry mary. says:
talk to me la
marry the merry mary. says:
ahah
Kezia. says:
hahas
Kezia. says:
cldnt find you.

marry the merry mary. says:
haha
marry the merry mary. says:
i was in the canteen
Kezia. says:
hahas. i was at the bench.
marry the merry mary. says:
oh

yupp. so the topic ended here. the conversation is so weird. hahas. it's all abt us. hahas. yupp. so ya. tmr it's sci and lit. i'll mug for sci later. cos it's major. i'm good at crapping. yupp. wah. luke choo is one hurting guy. hahas. he dun wan to go out with me. hahas. and now he says he'll go out with me in school. it's damn funny can. and you noe wat, CANDICE coming my hse tmr!!! yupp.

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